So the title speaks for itself The song on the side reflects on this chapter
dedicated to @HannahMockensturm
~RECAP~
"What--" I was cut of by my dad punching me
" get up you cunt your going to get what you want now come on upstairs" he said as he roughly pulled me up and shoved me to the stairs
"Please stop what are you doing" I say helplessly
"Come one you wimp I'm going to teach you how a real man handle things"
I wanted to escape but couldn't I was pushed up the stairs and into my room
'What was he going to do?' I asked myself scared of the answer
I was in deep though that I didn't realize that we were already inside my room and I was rudely shoved onto my bed
" I'm going to show you how a real man gives you a fuck"
~END OF RECAP~
Niall's POV:
He can't be doing this to me
No I hope its not what i think it is I hope that he wont do it
that he wont go that far no he's done some pretty nasty things to me in my life but this will go a far beyond low
I tried to make myself stand up and get off my bed but then something stopped me he pushed me back down he even hit me so i could stay their just a bit longer
As his fist collided with my jaw i winced in pain Why was he doing this? Did he really hate me this much? Do i really want to get raped and lose my virginity?
NO i want my first time to be special with the person i love not with my abuse father he has taken everything from me from my dignity to my crappy life this is the one thing that he cant take away from me
''NO STOP'' i say trying to be assertive with my response and not coward in fear
''What the fuck did you say fag'' he threatened but I had my mind set and even though it was going to cost me I will stand by my decision
'' I said no I'm not going to let you do stuff to me anymore'' after I said that I realized that i was no longer talking about lose my virginity i was talking about not letting him do anything to me i was not only wanted this to stop but i wanted everything to stop the bullying the harassment the torture
' Don't let him do this to you your not letting him do this you should not let him treat you like this your not going to let him take everything from you' a little voice said to me inside my head whose voice was that? somehow that voice seemed so familiar.
Then it all clicked i knew that voice it was the same voice from my dream but it was a spur after she said those words i didn't hear anything after that but that was a message a message that meant that i could not let him do this to me
'' Stop'' I say as I try and pry myself but i couldn't he just pushed me back.
'' Why are you doing this you don't do this my brother'' I say as i reach for a glass from my counter near my bed without my father noticing
'' You guys aren't brothers your not even my son '' my father says coldly and then i lost it i got the glass and smashed it on his head and he fell unconscious
I ran from my house to the busy streets of London 'how could he say that' I asked myself unsure of the real answer...
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NOT EDITED!
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