Falling For My Teacher.

Chapter 12

Later the next week in Health class we had a lesson on AIDS and HIV. The teacher was like "It doesn't matter if you had sex or not, you need to get tested." I don't know if I was crazy but I thought testing for it would be fun.  I asked Selena about it and she said it was a good idea but she didn't think I needed it. And I told her that it was something to do.

"You know there's this thing out that says you can test in your house, it's at pharmacys and stuff." Selena told me.

"Oh yea, I heard about that."

"I've never seen someone so eager to get tested for something like that."

"It's like getting a pregnancy test when you're still a virgin" I pointed out.

"You're right. But you do whatever cutie pic."

I saw Tommy in the hallway and we talked for a little bit. He told me he had sex with Selena and I was like "I been knowing that". He laughed and then told me that we should have a three some.

"What are you a sex addict or something?" I asked him.

"No. I just use it to the fullest. You know?"

"Your crazy."

"Does having sex with a teacher sound crazy?"

I rolled my eyes. "I'm not addicted to it though."

"Is that right? Hmm whatever you say. I'll catch you later."

After school I went to CVS and found one. There were a whole lot of , I mean a lot. Ones you pee on and bleed on and some you put in your mouth. I decided to get the one you put in your mouth. When I went to the pay counter and the guy was looking at me all crazy like I actually had HIV. 

"Good luck" He said laughing putting the box in a bag and giving it to me.

"Oh it's not for me. It's for your mother." I smiled and walked out the door leaving him dumb-founded.

It didn't dawn on me that I was actually taking an HIV test until I got home and opened the box. I wanted to throw it away but I toughened up. I mean, it's not like I have HIV or anything. David isn't the type of person to even have it. He's smarter than that.

It told me that I needed to swab my gums and put it in the test tube. It said that it would take 10mins to see the results. I wasn't just going to wait around and wait for something I knew that was going to test negative. So I went down stairs and made me one of my favorite meals; cereal,and damn it was actually pretty good. 

"Hey honey, I need your help right quick." Mom said to me.

"Okay what do you need."

"I need you to fix me with my dress. I'm going out with Tyler."

"What about us spending time." I tried not to smile

"You know what you need, a boyfriend."

I chocked on cereal. "Is that who you feel?"

"Yes."

"No I don't, I like seeing guys and stuff."

She shook her head. "But I don't want no babies."

I laughed. "Now where's this dress of yours momma?"

It was a skin tight dress the showed her boobs off. I think it was mine. Mom had me help her sew some pieces together and she kept nagging me about a boyfriend. I wonder if I told her about Bryan,would she care. I mean she's very accepting and all and her boyfriend is like seven years older than her.

She left and I went back to my room and saw the test I left. I had forgotten all about it.I walked past it not ready to look at it. "Why did I buy that stupid test?" I asked myself. I wanted to throw it away but i wanted to see what it says.

Finally, I decided to look at it. I got out my bed and go over to my dresser; it felt like I was going down Death Row.

I picked it up looked at it.  There were two lines.

I was HIV positive.