Falling For My Teacher.

Chapter 13

I thought about David. That bastard. I thought about Mr.Rice, Tommy and Selena. I had passed it on to three people. Three of my favorite people; my best friends. I didn't want to believe it. Mr.Rice gave his virginity to me. He gave it to me. I should have known not to have sex with Tommy, my gut was telling me not to.

It was screaming for me not to.

Selena; poor Selena. My best friend, partner in crime, she was the seat belt and I was the crazy driver. I thought about it for a while. Maybe if I hadn't had flaunted my self around bragging about sex, telling her it was no big deal,she wouldn't have had sex with Tommy.

What was I to do with myself? No guy is going to want a girl with HIV. My mom was going to kill me, it's worse than having a baby.

I sat on my bed for hours. Most of the time I didn't even know what I was thinking about. My heart was broken.

Mom came home around 10pm, she seemed happy. Was I to tell her now? The opinion "yes" and "no" went through my head like I was picking flower pedals.

"Hey honey, I brought you some food" She yelled from down stairs.

I walked downstairs and she had chicken strips and some fries. "Thank you. How was your date?"

"It was great. Me and him are thinking about living together. What do you think about that?"

"Whatever makes you happy." I forced a little smile on my face.

"What would you rather do? Him live over here or we move?"

I thought for a bit. Considering I gave my friends HIV and they would probably hate me forever I said "We can move."

"Yea I thought the same thing."

"Mom?"

"Yes" she sipped on some wine.

"I-I"

"Continue.."

"My teacher; I had sex with him, a couple of times."

She looked at me for a little bit and then drunk the wine that was in her glass all at once. "Okay, what did you say?"

"Wait." I said pouring more wine into her glass. "Drink." She did what I said.

"Remember David? He had HIV. We had sex, no condom. He gave me HIV."

She slapped me. "Jenifer! You know better than that! And your teacher? Are you serious? You spreaded it to him."

I looked down. "Tommy and I had sex and Selena had sex with him too."

She slapped me again. "You messed up their lives. You're an idiot."

I tried not to cry. "I'm sorry."

"I'm not the one you should be saying to."

"Mom. I can't."

"What do yo mean you can't? You need to tell them, all three of them could be having sex with other people right now and thanks to you, they all have HIV."

I whined. "Mom"

"Don't "mom" me. You need to call them."

"Seems like you care about them more than you care about me."

"Wow, your pathetic. I told you not to have sex without a condom and you know that and you screwed your freakin' teacher! What are you a whore?"

"I'm not."

"Seems like it to me. You know what? Just go! Go! You HIV infested whore."

I didn't move.

"Go! What are you waiting for Christmas?"

I went for my room without an answer. I was going to tell Selena first, the person that means the most to me. I was gong to tell her tonight. I ran through what I was going to say in my head about 100 times and then finally dialed her number. It rang three times.

"Gorgeous Selena talking!"

"Hey girl."

"Hey whats up?"

"Nothing what about you?"

"Just watching tv.

There was a silence. 

"Are you there?" She said

"Yes, I have something to tell you."

"Well spill it."

There was another 7 seconds silence, I swallowed and finally spoke. "David had HIV."

"No. Jenifer no."

"I'm so sorry."

"Wait why are you saying sorry to me?"

I didn't speak. There was the longest silence and then I heard her gasp.

"I'm so sorry." I said.

Another silence went between us. "I hate you" She rung up the phone.

A tear rolled down my cheek and I dialed Mr.Rice's number. It rang twice and he answered.

"What's up baby cakes?"

"I have something to tell you."

"Okay? Go ahead."

I let out a long sigh. "My boyfriend I had before you, had HIV. I gave you HIV."

Silence. I was getting tired of them. Then he spoke. "Okay."

"Okay? That's all you have to say?"

"I have nothing to say to you."

"I'm so sorry Bryan. I'm really-"

He cut me off my hanging up on me.

2for2 I said to myself, let's make it it 3. I dialed Tommy's number, It hang 5 times.

"What's up?"

"Hey Tommy."

"Oh hey, Is there something you need?

"Yea, I need to tell you something."

"Okay what is it. You gotta make it quick though."

"How quick?"

"Girl speak!"

"I gave you HIV, and I'm sorry." There was no silence for you. He replied with a quick "Fuck you slut!" and he hung up. 3for3.

I crawled under my blankets and cried for hours.

For the first time, I felt like killing myself.