Inspirations maybe?

reality

sometimes I feel

that I'm not real

like my joy

is a dream

that the happier 

version of me

is only an illusion

the happy conclusion

to a fairytale

but nothing ends

the world won't stop

at a happy point

it keeps spinning

and life continues

with ups and downs

you can't stay in the up forever

sooner or later

you'll fall

and that's when the reality of my being

hits me hard

I only feel real when

I'm at the low points

During the high points,

I feel like I'm floating 

and eternal

like the moment won't end

but that's a lie

because we all have high points

but then we drop back

to the ground