trigger warning: suicide
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Vic's POV
I couldn't take this anymore. Everything that could go wrong had gone wrong. Kellin cheating on me was the last straw. My father beating me while my mother watched and not doing anything was something I learned to deal with just like I learned to deal with my brother getting the whole school to hate me because I was gay. I was doing alright because I had Kellin, he was the reason I was holding on.
I thought Kellin loved me but he proved me wrong. He made me love him and I thought he loved me but I was so wrong. Today at school I saw him with his new boyfriend, Oliver, also the guy he cheated on me with. I couldn't stand seeing him so happy and me feeling so miserable. So right after I saw them, I left school and got into my car and drove to a bridge that was a couple miles away.
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I parked my car on the road that was next to the bridge. At the bridge there was a railing to keep you from failing off of it since the bridge was 400 feet from the ground. It was pretty certain you would die if you fell considering there was a deep river that was flowing really fast and had big sharp rocks at the bottom.
I went to the railing and sat on it. I thought about why couldn't I be happy. What was wrong with me? My family didn't love me, Kellin didn't, and kids I didn't even know hated me. I wasn't scared to die. I figured it would feel like nothing, no emotions, nothing like that. I thought it would just be a darkness that you couldn't escape. I was never a really religious person.
I hoped whatever was on the other side would treat me well but if it didn't I'd be used to it considering how I was treated on Earth. I had to jump soon because school was about to let out and this bridge would be packed and I wasn't one to make a scene.
I couldn't wait to die. The life I had now was unbearable. I couldn't live with myself. People hating me for no reason, getting beat and no one stopping it. I was done with everything and needed an escape. I wasn't worried about hurting anyone because no one would miss me when I'm gone. I was better off dead.
With those thoughts, I climbed over the railing. I stood up and looked down at the water and smiled. I would be dead in seconds when I jumped. I smiled and leant forward.
'Come on Vic, jump, like you said you're better off dead'
I thought to myself and I did, I jumped.
I was free, I was finally free.
