The Forgotten

Im sorry

Billie's P.O.V

She was gone, like that. I wanted to stop her. I don't know why I said that. I felt her ribs. I know she still hasn't gained any weight. Why though? I've even feeding her fattening foods! I mean I'm just not used to this. I don't know where she went. I looked for her. But couldn't find her. I love her so much. But I've never been in this situation.

"Billie she's gonna be fine." Trè told me. Though I saw panic in his eyes. I nodded and went to our room. I sat in our bed at looked at the wall. The wall filled with stunning pictures of her. One of us together. Tons of her. Some of me. Some of the band. I felt a tear roll down my face. Why was I so stupid? I should have went after her the second she left, I may have just lost her. And my baby. My previous baby. I picked up my phone, strolling through my contacts I tapped my favorite out of all of them.  

I put the phone to my ear.

"Hey...hello? Is there anyone there...? Fine then. Bye" I smiled at the sound of her voice. Allison's voicemail. I just needed to hear her voice. I know her phone was here. But I still could listen to the voicemail. Right?

"I need you" I whispered into the phone. I hung up and laid down on the pillow. I hoped she would come back. Or somehow contact us. I need her.

Allison's P.O.V

I woke up in a white room. I looked around and noticed it was the hospital. Memories of yesterday flooded my mind. And I did the first thing you do when you feel the worst pain and the dear of losing your baby. I screamed as loud  As possible.

"Hey! Someone get room 314!" Someone screamed. 2 nurses rushed in and tried to soothe me.

"It's ok! Breathe!" They kept repeating. I looked at them. And I felt tears coming to my eyes. I cried my eyes out. They asked me questions. As if I would answer. I looked at the clock on the wall. It read 5:00 p.m. I had slept for almost a whole day!

"Let me out! I need to call Trè!" I yelled at them. I didn't care about what Billie would do. He was acting weird last night. Mike and Trè needed to know where I was. i dont know what to do! i ran from them. I cant just give up and go back. Billie Joe is just gonna have to live with the fact that im obsessed with being skinny. I'd do anyhting for this baby, but its not gonna change with the snap of his fingers! 

"Look at me! You need to calm down, you fell and lost some blood, your hooked up to machines, if you do not calm down, your gonna loose your baby!" a nurse yelled. I shut up. i need to call Tre.

"Can i call Tre?" i asked after calming down, she grabbed the phone that was sitting beside me. i dialed the number that always seemed to make me happy...

Ring...

Ring...

Ring...

"Hello?" I heard Tre, i smiled at the sound of his voice.

"Its me, Allison"

"Allison! where are you! I dont know what to do with Billie. hes driving me crazy Alli. Please come home. Please" I relized what i need to do. I have to do this. I cant just let this be nothing.

"Im not going back. im going to stay away, if you want, you can help me raise this baby, but Billie wont be apart of its life, not now at least." i said, tears sliding down my face. im anorexic. i am. Billie wont just be a bitch about it, i heard the line go dead, the nurses were checking to make sure everything was ok. it was, but my heart was shattered. "when can i get out of here?" 

"After we finish checking on the baby." she replied

"where am i anyways?'

"Well, you are on the border of Ohio and Indiana. about to go to Indiana." she said smiling, i retured the smile and felt my stomach. i cried silently, im going to California.

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hello! i know its been forever! but my ipod flew out the window and i havent had anytime! so im gonna see if i can have my moms laptop and update every once in a while. also, how do you think everythings gonna play out? im thinking about brining ANOTHER band into this, they arent like Green Day, but theyre one of my fav bands, actualy about 10 new bands are coming into this. hehe enjoy!