A Different Kind of Pain

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

Jenny:

I can't believe I told them what happened to me. Tyler is a bitch, and he deserves every single thing I did to him. He raped me. Let's go back to that day, 3 years ago...

-I was 13 and he was 14. It started with a single cup. He came up behind me and cupped my breast and walked away. I didn't say much about it because he asked me to the black and white ball a couple hours later. I was so excited that I forgot about the cupping. I thought maybe he was going to ask me but chickened out and accidentally touched me there.

Anyway, while we were at the dance I had my first kiss. Not from Tyler, but from someone else. It was our friend Jack. He saw the whole cupping and assured me that it wasn't an accident. I didn't listen, so he told me that he liked me, liked me and he kissed me. He didn't really like me in that way, but he only did it to get me away from him. He likes May. He always has, always will, but I love him so much, that sometimes, I can't breathe.

Tyler saw the whole things and he brought me out to his car because he said that he wanted to talk.

"I saw you hooking up with Jack," he said with a smile.

"I wasn't hooking up with him, he kissed me. He likes me and he thought I liked him, but I don't. I think I like you..."

"Wow, you're a liar and a slut."

"I'm not! Please, I'll do anything for you to forgive me!"

"Anything...?"He said raising his eyebrows.

"You name it." with that, he grabbed me by the shoulders, and pushed me into the car. He took off his pants and jumped on top of me. Ripping my dress in half, I screamed as loud as I could, but he covered my mouth. After a while, I blacked out, remembering nothing more....

After that day, I ran away to my aunt's house and told my mom that I was at a camp. She is so gullible. I told my aunt everything and she said she would tell. So, I killed her.

Yes, I did. I put the knife right through her chest and burried her. I'm not sure if she was alive or not, but I do not care. She was turning against me, just like everyone else.

Now don't give me that look! Yeah, you! I know what I did was bad and I feel bad about killing Aunt Helen, but I don't feel bad about what I did to Tyler. He deserved every bit of torture.-

"Hey Jenny!" Jack said, opening my bedroom door, without knocking.

"Do you know how to knock?" I asked,throwing a pillow at him.

"I asked the same thing after you walked into me and Mia having-"

"Don't you dare finish that sentence. I'm sorry for that, you know that."

" I was only going to say fun, not-"

"Don't say it!"

"Sex!"

"Get out!"

"No, wait. I need to ask you something." he said turning his playful face to a calm, serious face.

"Uh oh, you're scaring me...."

"What's happening to May. You and her haven't been to school in a while. And there are some strange roomers spreading, and I don't know which one to believe. Please, I know you know what's happening. Tell me."

"You really wanna know...?"

"More than anything." so I told him everything. I knew I shouldn't, but I did. I couldn't say no to him. When I look into those big, beautiful eyes, I fall apart.

May:

*Ding dong*

"Coming!" I ran to the door,opened it and stood there, frozen.

"Amber..."

"Yeah, hi. It's me, your best friend. Well at-least I thought I was.."

"Amber..I-"

"Don't talk, I'm talking!" she walked into the house and slammed the door,"Why didn't you tell me about Tyler? It's been a month! A freaking month!"

"Who told you that?"

"Jack told me."

"Who told him?!" I asked furious.

"What does it matter?! Everyone's talking about it and you didn't have the nerve to tell your best friend?! Well, ex-best friend."

"Ex..?" I felt my eyes tear up. What was happening?

"Yes, ex," with that she walked out the door and slammed it on the way out.

*****

I got my math compass and turned the pointy side right next to my clean, pail arm. I touched my skin with it and paused for a moment,"Should I really do this?" ofcourse I should. I have nothing better to do. So, I pressed deep into my skin, ignoring the aggravating pain. The pain was horrible, but I liked it, peaceful, almost....

*****

"I don't get it," I said, pulling my mom away into the other room so no one could listen in,"why would Tyler kill himself?"

"They really don't, hon. Does it really matter? He's dead isn't he?" she doesn't get it. I didn't want him dead....

I couldn't say another word. The distress is killing me. I need to be alone.

Walking out of the dining room, I grabbed a piece of bacon and walked up the stairs to my room. I took my slippers off and threw them against the wall. I jumped onto my bed and put my pillow over my face and screamed. My life is slipping away. I haven't been to school in months. I haven't talked to Jack, the only person I've talked to is Jenny. She gets it. She gets what I'm going through. I'm sure rumors have spread throughout the school.

"Knock, knock!"

"Hey Tay," I said wiping a tear from my face.

"What's wrong May?" she asked laying down on her back, on the floor. She is so strange.

"Nothing."

"Tell me, moron."

"It's just," I began to speak with my voice cracking,"I'm so tired of people staring and saying,'that's the girl from the news!' I'm tired of everyone bringing it up 24/7. I wish they would just forget about it. Once people do, so will I," I paused for a second,"I did something horrible Taylor. Something that I will never forget." her eyes widened and she got up from the floor and sat next to me. I slipped my fingers under my sleeve and pulled it up, showing three deep, cuts.

"May...."

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-Soph-