Cardboard Castle

Chapter 7

Authors Note: Hey! This chapter and the next could quite possibly include suicidal thought, actions and references. Remember that suicide is never the answer, and there are more then one ways to get help! 

Nialls POV:

"Good night tonight, mates!" Liam said to Zayn and I as we walked through the doors of Kat's house. 

"I agr-" Liam stopped, while walking into the living room. The look on Louis and Harry's faces told us why.

"Whats wrong? Where's Kat?" I asked, frantically. 

"She's in her room, Molly went home for the night." Harry informed us, as i started to walk to Kat's room. "Niall, stop. She's not going to want to see you."

"What the hell do you mean by shes not going to want to see you. She's my girlfriend, of course she will want to see me!"

No one spoke for about 30 seconds, everyone just staring at each other. Zayn broke the silence, "Louis? Harry? What exactly went on when we were out tonight?" he asked. 

Harry and Louis looked at each other. Neither of them spoke.

"Speak Up." I growled at them. 

"Niall, please mate, hear me out" Louis started, "Harry and I got home from the pizzeria sooner then we expected. When we got here, the car was here but we didn't hear anyone inside. We called Kat's name, but no one replied, so we figured maybe a friend picked her and Molly up and they went out for a while." I shook my head, knowing where this is going. I then looked at Harry.

"So.." He picked Louis plea up, "We went into our bedroom and kind of started kissing, and well more led on to that, and I guess Kat heard us, because at some point she came upstairs to make dinner, and i guess she heard us teasing each other or something. So Louis and i snuck out the back and walked in from the front, making it look like we had just come home, because we didn't know if Molly knew anything. When we came in the door, i gave Kat a look, and she shook her head No, letting me know she didn't tell Molly. "

I couldn't believe what i was hearing. 

"So you're basically saying that Kat knows, the bands secret, that you two are gay?" Liam asked Louis. 

"Yeah, we're really sorry mates." Louis pleaded. 

Kat was going to kill me for not telling her. I needed to talk to her, but I'm not sure she was ready. 

"How long has Kat been in her room?" I asked them

"About an hour," Louis told me, "Look, Niall i tried talking to her but she told me to get out."

I shook my Head in disgust that my band mates could be so god damn irresponsible about what they were doing. I started for Kats bedroom, not even knocking, and walked in. 

"Get out." She demanded before she even looked to see who it was.

"Kat.." I didn't know what to say. She turned to look at me and started crying even harder then what she was before i walked into her room. "Princess, I'm so sorry." i finished.

"Sorry? You think that's going to fix everything?" 

"No, but. I don't know what else to say." I told her. 

She sat  up, uncovering the upper half of her body, and her arms. I checked her over, realizing she had new marks on her wrists.

"Kat? What the hell? I thought you stopped all that when we started dating? Why the fuck? What...? Can you please explain to me?" 

"It's nothing, Niall. Please, just leave."

"Leave? You think i can just leave, after looking at my girlfriend who is crying, cutting herself, and hurt? I cant just leave?"

"Please, i wanna be alone." I cant believe she was saying this to me, after everything i had helped her through. 

"No, I'm not leaving this room, Kat."

She didn't move, she just sat and cried, not looking at me. "Kat! Tell me what i can do?"

"There's nothing left for you to do, Niall. You've done enough. You're my boyfriend and best friend I'm supposed to be able to trust you with literally anything, and you're supposed to tell me everything. We were supposed to be partners. You lied to me, i asked you more then once for the past week and a half if something was going on. Between us, and with Louis. You swore to me that nothing was different, that everyone was just tired. What else have you lied about, Niall? What else, because I'm so numb right now that i can take anything. Hit me with your car, i wont feel it." 

"Kat...I'm so sorry.  I was sworn to secrecy. I couldn't tell you, or i would get fired. You know I'm living my dream right now, and that i cant give it up." 

"So, basically what you just said is that your job, aka singing to a bunch of god damn ten year olds who don't even know what a fucking penis size is, is more important then me? Then us?"

"I-" She had me taken back, "I didn't say that."

"Get out, Niall."

"Trust me, please Kat. Just trust me on this."

"Niall, i don't trust you at all anymore."

"Wha-What's a relationship without trust then? Fine. Goodbye, Kat. I'm getting my stuff, and i'm leaving."

"Ni-" She stopped. She let me go, i had to leave. I had to get out..

The last thing i remember about that night, is the look on the others faces as i walked out her front door crying.