Poison: For Better Or Worse

Chapter 10: Why this life?

Dre'Anna

     "She just slammed the ring on my chest and I dropped it. She gave me this stank look and kept going. I promise I won't ever lie to you ma. You don't need her. You did all this for her but she too selfish to realize that. Do you for real! You too beautiful to kiss ass!" December yelled pacing the room.

     I was confused I didn't know if she was talking to me or to herself. It really looked kinda weird. Thats why I remained quiet, let's not upset her anymore. "She just left you Dre'Anna. She just pushed you away like last weeks left overs. Ima kill her." My eyes got big. But I couldn't respond cause I wanted to kill her ass too.

     "Lets not land ourselves in nobodies jail cell December. Then we won't get to be around each other." I replied sounding all groggy and ugly. She stopped in her tracks and looked up at me. She didn't say anything nor did she move she just looked.

     It was like her eyes were a radar scanning me for some kinda lie or something but I wasn't lien about wanting to be around her. I hope she don't think I'm tryna come on to her cause that's what it sounded like from what I said but no I wasn't. I just like the attention and the friendship. Its one worth keeping. "Friends December." I reminded her. She nodded and tapped her pointer finger on her lip.

     The silence remained throughout the room for a while. The whole time she just stared at me. Never looking another way. I find it creepy as hell but what am I to do? Tell her ass to stop looking? I feel like December the crazy type. She might chop my body up for being mean to her.

    "You want revenge?" She asked, a sly smile spreading across her face. She rubbed hands together and licked her lips. "Kinda but I really don't wanna do anything stupid." I replied lowering my head. She lifted my face with her fingers and kissed my forehead. "Trust me I got you. When you get outta this hospital bed my plan will go into action." She smirked and kissed my cheek then sat down facing the window. She's crying. I can tell. She seemed to hold it in but now she's letting it out.

     "December." ... silence. "December...." she threw her head up as if she was saying Wussup. I didn't say anything so she turned and looked at me. Her face a hot red color, her eyes glistened and her nose looked like a tiny tomato.

     I waved her over and scooted so she lay next to me. Once she did I wrapped my arms around her and laid my head on top of hers. "You look just like her Dre'Anna..." was all she could say then she broke down like she once did before.

     The feeling of losing your wife. I know the feeling......now. I tried to shake my tears away but they started falling. Why does this feel so right. For me to be holding someone else's wife while she cries to me and I cry to her... it's horrible but I got her and I know she got me.
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     My eyes filled with tears as December rolled us outta the hospital. It was just hitting 5a.m and I'm finally free. Drug free. Turns out someone did drug my drink but they didn't put enough to kill me. And that someone I feel is Boss. Or Money. One of them did it. If I can recall Boss told Money to get me a drink because I wasn't feeling too up for a set. Oh lord.

     I looked down at my hands and stared as they slowly began to get blurry. Its crazy how one day everything can be okay but then the next it's like a tornado of bad events happen and your emotions just spread out, happiness being the furthest away from your heart.

     The tears slipped from my cheek down to my hand. It landed with a plop making December look my way. "Don't cry Dre'Anna... Its gonna be okay.." she mumbled rubbing my hand. She just didn't know affection breaks me down even more.

     "Why can't I be happy?! How come my life is so horrible? I'm a great person. I've always done right by everyone... AGGGGHHHHHHHH!!" Everything in me snapped.. My mind is shattered I can't think straight.. My brain hurts so bad.

     "Dre'Anna breathe please. You're gonna be okay.. I promise if nobody got you I will-" "Why December? Why are you helping me? What do you want? Some ass? Cause if that's it you not gonna get it. You just take a perfect stranger under your wing and try to spoil them. For what? What do you really want? You wanna use me too?" I snapped cutting her off.

     I felt my nose flare and I just knew my eyes were bloodshot red. My blood was boiling in my skin now. "YO CHILL TF OUT... IF I JUST WANTED SOME ASS I WOULD'VE BEEN GOT IT. I RESPECT YOUR ASS CAUSE YOU WAS GOING THROUGH WHAT I WENT THROUGH. I JUST WANTED TO HELP. BUT IT SEEMS SOME PEOPLE DON'T KNOW HELP WHEN THEY HAVE IT. I'M NOT THE ONE WHO HURT YOU. YOU NOT A VICTIM HERE.. ION LIKE SEEING FEMALES HURT." She snapped back.

    Her words like a hammer knocking sense into my head. I was wrong for lashing out. Maybe it's not even me snapping at her. Maybe it's the devil taking over my senses, my soul, making me change... "sorry." I mumbled.

Silence.

     "Where you want me to drop you off at?" She asked pulling up to a stop sign. "To my car..." I replied. She nodded her head but didn't say anything else to me. Maybe I was dead wrong. Life is steady beating me down.. I'M SORRY WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO?! I just feel like screaming and shouting and....  "what the hell?!"

     "What is this?! Why is my car open?? All my clothes was in the trunk. Oh my God.... Nooo..." My heart raced my head spun. Can life get any worse? And just like that God responded by letting raindrops fall.. "Thank you.." I cried. Once again I dropped down to my knees and cried digging my nails into the gravel. Please someone help me.