A theme...
A protagonist...
An antagonist...
Dammit.
Think.
Write.
How can I put my bouncing thoughts on paper?
How?
I can't disappoint this time,
the fear of rejection is too great.
How does one become a best-selling author?
The book signings,
interviews,
popularity,
follower increase,
What will make them read more?
Do I have to sacrifice everything;
the hours are winding,
and my mind is blank, as well as the paper,
Nothing is clear.
I don't think I can make my readers cry, cheer, heart beats increase of anticipation.
I don't think I have the write to hold this pencil,
or possess this computer with an empty word document sitting in front of me.
I don't possess the power.
I don't own the confidence.
I'm a shy girl who lives in Indiana.
How can I simple outcast become an author?
I'm dreaming,
hoping,
second-guessing.
Second-guessing is another friend of mine.
Rejection and the art of second-guessing clouding my creativity.
They mock me,
laugh,
tease me.
My head hits the keyboard and I scream.
