The Broken Hearted Girl (Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 1

It was a sunny day it was my birthday. I turned 16. This day was supposed to be one of the greatest days in my life.




I unlocked the door and slowly opened it and there she stood. My mother, I should be happy to see here but I'm not Leave again! my mind yelled. I just stared at her for a long time and she didn't even seem to bother herself to smile at me.




My parents broke up when I was a little girl. I think my mum left my daddy but I never really understood it. I lived with my daddy, Nick, in London while my mum and her new boyfriend moved to New York.




"Why are you here?" I asked her confused, maybe she wanted to say Happy Birthday.




"Common Eli, don't be stupid. Did you really think I came to say Happy Birthday? No! Why should I? Nobody is ever going to love you. I din't even want you." this broke me. How could my mother say this to me? Why can't I have a normal one. One who loves me and helps me through these horrible years?




I ran upstairs and locked myself in the bathroom. Tears streamed down my face, next to me was my best friend the razor blade. How badly did I want to feel the hot blood on my wrists now, forgetting all the pain in my heart.




I never had an easy life, I was used to a lot. I got bullied for loving kickboxing instead of ballet. The other made me feel ugly, not good enough. They also gave me the feeling that everything would be better without me, but what my own mother did to me was too much. But I have a few things to fight for.




For my best friend Allie, the only one who didn't bully me at school, for Nick and for Benji. He's a little boy but he understands more about this world than some adults.




It seemed as the tears would stop. I heard a knock on my door. "Eli, please let me in." my daddy said softly. I didn't answer or moved. I laid curled up on the floor, breaking inside.




Why did she have to destroy everything? Can't she leave and never come back? I hate her. I heard my mind yelling. She just came here and destroyed everything. I just want to die, but I won't do her this favor that's all I want. That is all she wants. Seeing me breaking.




I heard another knock on the door, this time a female voice spoke. A voice that always made me smile and a voice I would trust my life it was Allie. Nick obviously called her. I opened the door for her. She hugged me, not saying anything, every now and then stroking over my back. This was probably the thing I loved most about her. She always knew what to do.




This was my birthday. The most horrible day that ever happened to me.




I fell asleep, crying in Allie's arm. I woke up in the middle of the night, screaming in my bed. Allie must have carried me there. I had a nightmare, again. It was always the same and these nightmares broke me. The only person I really loved bullied me in them. Harry Styles, I fell in love with him the very first time I saw him on the X-Factor. He was the only reason why I was still alive.




"Eli, I'm sorry to tell you this but I got a scholarship in Iceland and I'm going to move there. I know you would need me here and trust me this is at least as hard for me than for you but you now how important this is for me." a tear rolled down Allie's face.




I felt numb. She can't leave me, who's going to protect me? With who am I going to spend my time after school? I couldn't move. I wanted to cry but I couldn't.




Nobody would protect me from the bullies again. Who's going to be my protective shield?




There were two weeks left until the day Aliie is going to leave and I tried to spend as much time with her as possible even it broke my heart a little bit more to know that she won't be around me soon.How am I going to do this? How? I was completely broken by now.




I just wanted to be happy, that's all I wanted. Why does all of this happen to me?




With time I found my strength again. Everything seemed to get normal again. One day I met a cute boy. His name was Micheal. I fell in love with him, at the beginning I wasn't sure about my feelings, I wouldn't be able to love him as much as I loved Harry, though I loved him.




I was glad that I had him. We have been a couple for a few months now and we had dinner together, after this he wanted me to sleep with him. I said no, I wasn't ready. That's the thing I hate about boys. They can't wait until we're ready.




He started peeling my clothes off. I told him to stop, but he didn't I tried to get away, I thought he just wanted to tease me, so I just stood up and wanted to leave the room but he pulled me back on the bed. He kept taking my clothes off. I yelled at him and tried to move but I could he was too strong. And I was numb and on the one hand I had no clue what was going on on the other hand I knew just too well what was coming now.




I tried with my whole body to pull him away but it didn't work, he was too strong. And then he raped me. I kept trying the run away but it didn't work. "If you're going to tell this anybody or if you'll leave me I'll do it again.




He left the room and I broke down. Realizing what just happened. I had buries all over my body. I cried and it didn't seem to end. I fell asleep still feeling the pain on my body.




Days went by and I didn't talk to anybody. Micheal raped me again and again. I just wanted to run away but I was too afraid. How could he do this? I'm a human not a toy!




The only thing that kept me breathing now were 5 lights in my soul, Louis, Liam, Zayn, Niall and Harry. They were the only thing I had left. The only reason why I should stay alive and they didn't even know me. They were my heros.




I just had to see a picture, to hear one note of one of their songs and I felt a slightly bit better. I could forget all the pain for a little moment. Just a short but this time was a fairy.













"Dear Diary, It was one of those fucking days. Michael was with me, the whole day, on a Saturday! And the only thing I wanted to do is sleeping, crying and try to forget how much he hurt me. But he didn't let me. I'm still not sure if I should tell my dad about THIS. I'm scared what Michael will do. He's such an asshole. God, help me. Can I just die or fall asleep and never wake up again? But no. This would be too easy. Hey. I'll go to the bathroom, using my best friend. My razor blade will help me. Goodnight. - E.J."