The Broken Hearted Girl (Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 2

It comes to a part of life where everything else is not important anymore. When you're afraid that you going to die. 

I had heavy head aches the whole day and night so Nick decided to go to the hospital with me. It was a cloudy march day. It didn't seem as it is going to be a good one. Seconds took as long as hours. Time didn't want to pass bye.

 "Daddy i don't want to be strong anymore. I can't do this anymore"

"Princess. Listen closely. I'm so proud of you. I am more proud than anybody else could be. You are my life. I will try everything to protect you in the future but that's a thing I can't help you with. If I could I would take the whole pain out of you just to see your angelic smile. But princess please stay strong. The doctors know what they're doing. I love you!"

 Tears ran down my cheek and Nick carefully wiped them away with his fingertips. He was breaking inside.

The doctors finally came but they didn't have good news. I had a tumor in my brain. Why is it always me?I'm just sixteen years old and I already have cancer. It felt like somebody just pulled my ground away, and I'm falling without touching the ground ever again.

I didn't realize what this would mean for me. To have an operation in my brain. I could die. The doctors said that they want to do the operation in one week, I'm not sure if I can do this but I came to far to gib´ve up now even wanted to die every night. But I'm going to fight for Nick, Benji and my five angels.

I woke up ever night when my dad had a nightmare again. "You killed my daughter with the operation!" "You took my whole life away!" "She is too young to die!"....

This week was too long and short at the same time. I cried every night I just wanted it to be over. . "What if that is my last week on this earth?" "There is so much I want to do. I am too young to die."  It's the most horrible feeling to know that this could be your last week here. Maybe I would get to a better place. Where I can be happy.

"I love you princess." my daddy said with tears in his eyes. I felt my sadness all over my body. This won't be the last time I see you I whispered while little tear ran down my face.

I could finally go home again. I made it. The operation was without any troubles. I just have still some head aches but the doctors said this would be normal. I never felt this strong and weak at the same moment. I hated this feeling.

Twitter was my second home. I loved to talk there to people. They understood me, they cared about me and they wouldn't hurt or bully me. I trusted them and I could talk to them about my life. One day I did  a shipping and one girl, her name is Stephie, send me picture to ship her with one of the boys. She has blonde hair and green-blue-grey-brown eyes. I really thought that she was beautiful, I shipped her with Harry, I never shipped someone with Harry before, gratefully she loved Niall with all her heart. I've never seen someone loving the blonde one this much.

The first question she asked me was how I feel. And we started talking to her. We got closer every day and I found my soulmate in her. I can talk to her about every thing and I can't lose her. She tried everything to make me smile and she wouldn't even forget to tell me how much she loved me every day. We went from strangers to best friends.

The past months were horrible. I don't want this anymore. The bullies found a new reason to bully me. They think it's funny to get raped this often. There are no words to describe how I feel. If I could I would like to disappear or delete my whole life. I think nobody would even care or be sad.

My phone made a voice. I got a message. Stephie wrote me. She just wanted to know how I feel. She cared so much about me. I'm really thankful that I found her. I can tell her everything and I'll feel better after I did it.

I was in the bus on my way back home. There were a fit boy in front of me. He starred at me and I blushed. A boy called Danny, he asked me out for a date and I agreed. He made me forget everything. He can't be real. He's too perfect. I never really believed in wonders, but I thought he was one. But no matter how deeply I fell fro him and I rely loved him, I would always have this crush which i a lot more than a crush on Harry . 

I woke up with heavy head aches again, the same as they used to be. I didn't tell anybody first I just hoped that they would get away again but they didn't.woke up with heavy headaches again. The same as she had when she had her tumor. But she didn't tell anybody first. But the pain got heavier every minute. I couldn't handle it anymore. It was already evening. Danny was over to visit me, I didn't spend attention on him, I stared at the wall and tears run down my face. The second operation is a lot more comlicated than the first one. I knew that the tumor was back. Danny tried to hug me but I just pulled him away, there would be just one person I'd allow to touch me now and this would be Harry. No matter how much I loved Danny, he would alwayd be in my heart as my hero.

On the next day Danny took me to the hospital and my biggest fear got true, my old friend in my brain was back. It seemed as he missed me. I had to chose between alive or dead the problem was I didn't know if I'd survive this operation. Maybe I should just enjoy the rest of my life.