Heart Cannot Lie

chapter 13

Its been 75 days since Seungcheol left to China. Jeonghan sigh as he tick another date on his calendar. '17 days more Jeonghan,' he mumbled to himself. The feeling of longing to meet Seungcheol is slowly became unbearable for him. He wish every night before he sleep that when he wake up these painful days will be over and he will get to see his beloved Seungcheol again. But he can only wish. Every seconds feels like years and its killing him a little more inside. After finished preparing for school, Jeonghan eat his breakfast and say goodbye to his parent. And as always, he let out a forced smile to hide his sadness. 'Take care son,' Mr. Yoon said as he send Jeonghan to the front door. He pat his son head and cheer for him,' He will be back soon dear.' Jeonghan nod and walk to school. ' 'It breaks my heart seeing our son like that. This must be very painful for him,' Mr. Yoon said to his wife. ' Yes dear. After Seungcheol left he never smile brightly anymore. He must love him so much, right?' Mrs. Yoon said to her husband. Mr. Yoon nods, agreeing to his wife. 'Absence makes the heart grow fonder dear,' Mr. Yoon said.

Jeonghan wear his earphone and turned on his ipod, listening to a recorded file. A Fool's Only Tear song by Big Bang. He recorded it when Seungkwan, Seungcheol and him were singing at the karaoke last year. He keeps listening to it cause, not only the lyric match perfectly to his situation right now but he missed Seungcheol's voice. Seungcheol loves to rap but actually he has a sweet voice when he sing. Tears escape from his eyes but he quickly wipe it away. Then he felt someone tap his shoulder. Jeonghan turned and see Jisoo with his smiling eyes. 'Ah Jisoo-ah. Good Morning,' he said. 'Good Morning Hannie. Oh you were listening to your ipod. No wonder you didn't hear me calling you,' Jisoo said. 'Sorry Jisoo,' Jeonghan smile effortlessly. 'Its okay. Yah it is so cold right now, right,' Jisoo said as he interwined his finger to Jeonghan's. 'Yes it is. Why didn't you wear any glove then?' Jeonghan asked him. 'Cause I want to hold your hand,' Jisoo said whilst smiling. Jeonghan chuckles hearing Jisoo's straight-foward answer. 'You're funny, Jisoo,' Jeonghan said. 'Come lets run or we'll be late,' he said slyly letting go of Jisoo's hand.

Ever since Seungcheol left, Jisoo began to approach Jeonghan. He had always been in love with him but he didn't get any chance to confess. Jeonghan was thankful that Jisoo was always there to accompany and help him. Jisoo is a nice boy. He always tried to make Jeonghan happy but Jeonghan's heart was fully Seungcheol's. Jeonghan know sometime Jisoo caressed his face and hold his hand sneakily. He did felt good to have someone treating him lovingly like that, but his heart still feel cold. The warmth in Jeonghan heart had left with Seungcheol. And every time Jisoo hold his hand during cold days, honestly Jeonghan didn't feel warm. He prefer to hold the hot pack Seungcheol had given him.

Everyday during class, Jeonghan gives his full attention to the teacher's teaching to distract himself from feeling empty without Seungcheol beside him. During recess, he prefer eating alone at the school rooftop. He hardly spent time with the boys now. Even after school he prefer going to the lab and do some experiment. It was only Jisoo that makes effort to accompany him.

Yes, that is how broken Jeonghan right now. He drastically changed from his happy-go-lucky personality to a quiet and sad person after Seongcheol left.
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*sound of whistle*
'Okay boys. That is all for today. Good work,' Seungcheol heard their coach end their practice for today. 'Thank you coach. Thank you for your hard work,' Seungcheol and the rest of the team bow to thank their coach. Seungcheol walk to the bench and sit down when his coach meet him. 'Excellent performance Seungcheol. If you keep this up, you can finish your training earlier and go back to Korea, ' the coach said complimenting Seungcheol. 'Thank you coach,' Seungcheol bow to his coach. 'Congratulations Coups !' Wenhan, Seungcheol's chinese friend, gave him a high five. Seungcheol smile and said,' You too man.' 'Come, lets eat before going back to the dorm,' Wenhan said as they finished packing their things.

It was 10 minutes past 10 when they arrived at their dorm. Seungcheol took his shower and when he went out from the bathroom he heard Wenhan was talking to his girlfriend over the phone. 'I'll meet you this weekend, love. Bye.' he said. A big smile formed in his lip. 'Looks like someone got a date this weekend,' Seungcheol teases Wenhan. 'Of course. Its been a week I didn't get to meet her. It is hurt missing someone, okay?' Wenhan replied. 'I know,' Seungcheol said to himself. He know exactly how it feel. He felt it everyday since he arrived here in China. Even if it is really torturing to refrain himself from contacting Jeonghan but, Jeonghan hated him right? So contacting Jeonghan will only be disturbing him. Moreover, Jeonghan must be very happy now with Jisoo. Yes. Seungcheol know about Jisoo from his mom. Her mom often saw Jisoo walk together with Jeonghan to school. Ah its hurt ! Seungcheol lay on his bed and look at Jeonghan's picture in his cellphone until he fell asleep.

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Jeonghan was at the lab again today. But today, he was too disturbed by Seungcheol's pout that had been in his mind all day. Usually at time like this, Seungcheol will accompany him here if he doesn't have any basketball practice. And he will continously asking when he will be finished with a pout on his lip. He let out a sigh and close his eyes. 'I better go home,' Jeonghan said. He finished packing and locked the door. Then he put on his earphone and let himself being immersed to the song he's listening. Jeonghan walk aimlessly and end up watching the sunset at Sincheon River. With the beautiful view and in front of him, Jeonghan's tears flow again from his pretty eyes.

Cheol-ah. Choi Seungcheol.
I pretend to be strong, I try to smile but my eyes can't lie. I miss you so much and now I'm crying again.
I never thought I need you here when I cry. Cheol..I miss the way you comfort me. Now I always have to comfort myself but the tears keep dripping.
Cheol-ah, did you miss me? Did it hurt you like it hurt me?

Jeonghan wipe his tears then walked home. He forced a smile when he saw his mom. 'Hannie dear, be strong. You can see him soon,' Mrs. Yoon said caressing his son cheek. 'Okay eomma. Don't worry about me. I am fine. See?,' Jeonghan smile showing his smiling eyes. Mrs. Yoon know his son don't want her to worry so she nods,' That's better dear.' Jeonghan walked to his room and lay on his bed. 'Sorry Cheolie. I cry again today,' he said closing his eyes. My beloved Cheolie, come home quickly.

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'Congratulations Seungcheol. You had work hard and showed great performances during this practice. I hope you keep up your passion for basketball since you were really skilled. Wish you best of luck on your coming tournament'.

'Thank you coach. It was a blessing that I can learn from you. I hope we can meet again next time,' Seungcheol said before he wave goodbye to Wenhan and his coach. KL17 take me home, please.

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New chapter updated. Thanks for reading my story. And do enjoy Seungkwan,Seungcheol and Jeonghan singing A Fool's Only Tear in the media above. Wish Coups will sing again.