Heart Cannot Lie

chapter 12

Jeonghan walked home sadly. He regret saying those mean words to Seungcheol. And he has no one to blame to but himself. 'I'm home mom,' he said. Mrs. Yoon hug her son and pat his back. She know how broken his son is right now. 'Its only 3 months dear. Be patience. He will come back to you,' she said to console Jeonghan. Jeonghan nods, trying hard not to let his tears flow in front of his mom. He didn't want her to worry about him. He let out a forced smile and said,' I'm tired mom. I want to sleep'. Mrs. Yoon smile and caressed her beloved son face. 'Okay dear. Good night,' she said and kissed his forehead.

Jeonghan went to his room and lay on his bed. He clutch the sheet hardly and bit his lip to hold in his sobs. 'I miss you Cheol-ah,' Jeonghan said. Right then he saw the box that Seungcheol left on his table. He reached for it and see a handwritten letter. Jeonghan eyes widened cause he know perfectly who the handwrite belong to. Seungcheol. He read the letter.

To my beloved Yoon Cheonsa. Its me. Your fool, Choi Seungcheol. Wait. I know you might want to crumble this right away after knowing it is from me but please read it till the end,okay? I know how much you hate me right now for my fatal mistake. So I am writing this letter to you to tell how I feel, cause I remember perfectly that you don't want to see me anymore. Hannie-ah, I will be away for 3 months for my basketball training in China. Fuhh.. it is so far away, right? I cannot see you for a long time. Please take good care of yourself when I'm not around Hannie. Don't forget to eat even if you are busy with those experiment. And dress warmly cause its cold now. Sorry I cannot walk with you to school everyday and keep your hand warm. Don't be sad Hannie-ah. Ah why am I saying this? Of course you will not be sad cause you wont see me, the fool that make you cry. Anyway, smile always and be happy. I will be missing your sweet smile Hannie-ah. Yah Jeonghannie, I want to give you something. The weather is cold now so since I wont be there to annoy you anymore, I hope this can make you warm. And in case you missed me. I leave you something in your drawer next to your bed. So, I guess this is goodbye Hannie-ah. I am so sorry for hurting you. Its a good thing that I am leaving right now cause I wont be hurting you anymore,right? I miss you Yoon Jeonghan. Even if you hate me please know that I am truly loving you. Take care dear.

Jeonghan's tears flow rapidly from his eyes. 'Stupid Seungcheol. How can you said that I wont be sad after you leave. I love you stupid! How can I be happy when you were not beside me? You are so stupid Cheol-ah,' Jeonghan said and put the letter to his chest. He then put the letter safely in his diary and then opened the box. Inside the box is a beige-colored sweater and a hot pack. Jeonghan smile. Yes, this is the Seungcheol he knows for years. He always take care of Jeonghan. 'Stupid Seungcheol. After I said those mean things to him, he still care for me,' Jeonghan said to himself. With a sigh he put the box away and went to the bathroom to take his shower.

After he finished showering, he dry his hair and prepare to go to bed. He lay on his bed. After a while he still cannot sleep eventhough he feel so tired. He keeps thinking of Seungcheol. Then he remember he didn't check his drawer yet. He opened the drawer and saw a set of aromatherapy. 'Hmm what is this for,' Jeonghan wondered. He fill the top of the burner with water and put a few drops of the aromatherapy oil. After he light the candle below, he finally knew why Seungcheol gave it to him. Tears drops from his eyes automatically. Its Seungcheol's scent that he love so much. Jeonghan hug the pillow beside him tightly and wipe his tears. He missed Seungcheol. Then he fell asleep easily with the scent of Seungcheol filling up his room.

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Jeonghan wakes up to the alarm ringing. He lazily took his shower and prepare to school. After taking his breakfast, he said goodbye to his mom and dad. He opened the front door disappointly cause for all this years, when he opened the door, he will see Seungcheol waiting for him with his gummy smile. 'I guess I have to adapt myself to this new routine for 3 months. Its only 3 months Jeonghan,' he remind himself. He grip the hot pack inside his pocket tightly. He feel cold physically and inside his heart.