We finally got into this crappy place we call school. Him and his friend hugged me goodbye and they went off to the cantine and it happened again, I was alone...
I decided that I should go and walk around school for a while and ignore all the comments.
The bell rang which meant we had to go to form. I walked outside in the snow to get to my form room. The teacher let us in and I sat down in my usual spot on the right. I got out my planner and she signed it for me.
It came to lunch and I was alone once again. I threw away all my lunch because I wasn't hungry. I walked out of the hall and I took a few laps around school again. The guy saw me a couple of times but when I walked past again, he ran up to me.
"Hey, you okay? What are you doing on your own? "He said pulling me into a hug at the end because he knew how I felt. A tear slid down my cheek and onto his shoulder. "I'm alone. Im always alone. Mentally too. I don't know how much I can take of this. People laughing in my face, judging me, making fun of me... it's like I have no one there for me anymore. Homes just as worse. I just wanna run away from it all. " I whispered into his shoulder.
He sighed "Abbie. You shouldn't be feeling like this. I didn't know... is it really that bad? " he asked holding me tighter.
I nodded.
We stood there holding eachother. At this very second, I feel wanted. But I know, as soon as he lets go, It will just go back to normal.
He pulled away a little wiping a tear.
"Meet me after school outside the English block? " he asked
I nodded. My eyes became watery again.
"Shh, everything will be okay. I promise. "
As soon as he said those two last words, the bell went.
"I don't want to go" I sighed.
"You have to. I'll see you after school. Love you. " he said hugging Me again.
"Love you. Thankyou. " I said.
I started walking to next lesson nervous at what would happen.
The bell finally went at exactly 3:10. I grabbed my book and put it into my bag. I moved my hair to each sides of my shoulders and put my bag on my back. I stood there until the teacher told me to go. I walked out of the class.
"Hey Abbie! Catching the bus? " a girl asked me.
I nodded no and carried on walking.
I walked all the way to the cantine and I saw him there waiting for me.
He ran up to me and gave me a hug. "Are you okay? "He asked. I just hugged him tighter hoping he would know the answer.
"Can you walk home? I'll walk you back. " he asked.
"Are you sure? " I asked.
He nodded.
"I'm not sure, I'll ring my mom" I said.
I took my phone out and rang my mom. I hope she's okay.
"Hello? "She croaked.
"Hey mom. I wanted to know if I could walk back and how are you feeling? "I asked
"Sure you can hun, "I nodded yes to him. "I'm feeling a bit Better, I'm going up the doctors soon. " she said
"Okay. Well I have to go now mom. I hope everything is okay and I love you"
"Thankyou, love you. "
I ended the call.
"Yeah, I can walk back." I said to him.
He smiled taking my hand in his and we started to walk back.
He got his phone out with his free hand and put some music on. He put Shawn Mendes 'aftertaste' on.
"This is my favourite song... " I said.
"I know " he smiled making me smile.
My legs started to ache from walking up a big hill.
I saw the boys that are in a few of my classes look over at us.
"Oh no... "I said looking at them.
He looked at me and then looked in my direction.
The boys saw our hands together and they started shouting things saying we're together. "Are you're legs still aching? " he asked.
I nodded.
"Here, jump on my back. " he said bending by the wall.
"Wait. What? I'll break you" I said worried.
"You won't, your light as a feather, now jump on my back. " he laughed.
I did what he said and jumped on his back.
"See. I told you. Light as a feather. " he said making me giggle.
I wrapped my arms loosely around his shoulders and I put my forehead in the crook of his neck. He speed up so we could get past the lads so they couldn't say anything else.
"Abbie... your arms. They're bleeding. "
My eyes shot open. I jumped off his back and hid them behind mine.
"No, no they're not... " I stuttered.
"Abbie. Show me. " he said with a serious but caring face.
I put my arms out and he rolled up my sleeves. I closed my eyes from the pain. I must of caught my open cuts on his bag when I went on his back.
"Abbie..." he sighed.
He got some clean tissues out of his bag, alone with a small first aid bag he has.
He cleaned up all the blood and wrapped fresh bandages around them.
When he was done, he kissed my arms.
"Promise me you will never do this again." He said.
"I cant-" he cut me off.
"Abbie. Stop. You can't be doing this to yourself. Your too precious to get hurt. If you get hurt, I hurt. Promise me. "
"Fine. I'm sorry. I promise "
He nodded grabbing my hand again walking back the rest of the way.
