I saw you today.
You looked so happy. You were smiling and laughing like old times. You were doubling over and clapping like a carefree little boy.
Your strides were slow, relaxed. There was that extra spring in your step. You didn't walk like you owned the world, you walked like you loved it.
I saw you today.
You weren't that lost boy that I left behind. You weren't the broken boy I took advantage of. You weren't the boy with the crushed soul that I'd left to bleed.
You weren't the weak puppy everyone thought you were. You weren't the obnoxious clown people took you for. You weren't the lonely fool people tortured and stabbed.
You were you.
She made you you.
She made you realize how life gave you opportunities. She made you see the beauty in living, in laughing, in loving. She made you feel like the most important person in the world. She made you feel special.
She completed you.
The same way I very much wanted to.
The way I couldn't.
I was just as lonely. I was just as bereft. I was just as confused. I was just as lost.
I thought we wouldn't make it. I hoped we might. I believed we couldn't.
I stopped believing in you the way people lost hope in me. I let go of you the way people let go of me. I killed you the same way others did me.
I saw you today. I saw you with her today.
You were happy.
12/1/15
