The Perfect Luna

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

"Guys stop it seriously why would you be fighting I made my decision!" I exclaimed. They just didn't understand how hard it was to make a decision. Once, just once I'd like my life to not be complicated. But I never get what I want never, well not exactly what I want. I wanted a mate, I got two, I made the decision I wanted, now they want to change it. This just isn't going to work they are both crazy. "Austin what do you think you're doing, get off him and don't start a fight you know you can't win." I said while looking at him

Austin wasn't so convinced and when Kyle had brought his attention to me Austin pounced and started ripping at his throat again going for the kill. I needed to stop this but I had no idea how to. Neither of the boys were listening to me and Austin wasn't stopping but I guess you couldn't really blame him what he would have walked in on would have provoked him so much I guess you could justify his anger and frustration. I couldn't imagine walking in on one of my mates with another women I just couldn't handle that, it would push me right over the edge with no return.

"Austin if you hurt him you hurt me!" I screamed in frustration why did I have to have the two alphas why did I have to be put with probably two of the most possessive males in our community.

The boys finally decided to detach from each other because they knew I was right if they did hurt one another they would be hurting me as well in the process not physically of course but mentally I would be destroyed. That's half the reason why dad won't come out of his room because mentally he is missing half of him and while physically he is extremely healthy with being a wolf he isn't in the best mental state of mind. I couldn't imagine what I would be like if one of the boys hurt each other.

Austin had transformed back to his human form completely naked but never the less we could now actually have a human conversation.

"Amber I love you, I do, so much you have no idea and you need to know about Kyle." Austin sounded desperate but at the same time I knew he had something to say and he wasn't just being jealous.

"OK fine what is it that I must know, that must have been so important that you had to burst through my door in full form?" I did sound a bit exasperated but you know what he had just ruined my perfect moment with Kyle so I deserved the right.

"Kyle isn't all he is cracked up to be he didn't even wait for you he gave his first time to another shewolf and not just the one but he has slutted around a bit with at least another one or two. You gotta believe me baby he isn't worth your time." Austin explained it and he sounded as if he was begging for his last breath of air. The push for me to believe him came within his voice but then I remembered how he said he wanted to be living it up until he found his mate.

"You are such a hypocrite, you told every young female in our pack that you wouldn't be waiting for your mate and that you would be living it up while you could, so I'm guessing you didn't save yourself for me either did you??" I explained still exasperated I didn't care if I sounded angry at him because I was, I was more than angry I was pissed off how could he have the nerve to come in here and explain to me the one of my mates hadn't saved himself for me when he hadn't don't the same thing himself.

"I only said that baby, I have an image to keep to be a cool chilled out soon to be alpha. I had to say that but every girl that came to me I pushed off waiting for you, I would always wait for you baby." I don't think Austin realised that Kyle was still here because he kept stepping closer to me as if reaching for his last touch if I were to push him away because of his discovery. I wanted to believe him but at the same time I didn't I wanted both my mates but at the same time I wanted neither. Choosing either would cause so much pain and choosing none would still cause the same pain. One would have to be a perfect match because nothing can have a second pair.

"Austin I don't believe you I've heard the girls talk about their wild nights with you, the murmurs in the toilets, I know who you are and I was willing to accept that but now you're lying and I won't except that." I would not put up with his lies and wouldn't put up with any ones lies.

"Kyle tell me right now and don't you dare lie how many other girls have you been with?" I didn't care if it wasn't the right time to ask or he didn't feel like sharing it in front of Austin I needed to know right now.

"I've been with four other women. Two of them were when I was young and stupid and had the same attitude as Austin claims he was faking and the other two women were bitches who claimed to be my mates they were older and power hungry. Because they were already of age to find there mates I had assumed they could feel the connection and that I needed to be older to understand it so we engaged in activities that I thought would bring forward the feelings but they didn't and when their real mates came to find them eventually I realised I had given up something I should have given to my mate." He sounded saddened that he hadn't waited for me and that reached my heart and started to bring forward some kind of emotion I never thought would sit in there again.

"Austin I don't care what he has done if he could stand here and admit to me about the women he has been with and regret it whole-heartedly then I don't care!" Did Austin honestly think that this would change my decision? I could see it in his eyes now, Austin did love me but it was too little too late now I had made my decision and I think I may have been falling in love with Kyle.

"Baby I know I have made mistakes and I will tryevery day to make up for them but please don't push me away now give it a whileto settle look at every scenario and decide what's best for you over all notbest for you right now." Austin pleaded with me not to push him away and I knewwhat he meant by that. I always thought the only way I would reject my matewould be if they were a human because I wouldn't make them live with themonster but now I knew there was another scenario. I would have to choose oneof my mates and reject the other so that I could be fully and whole heartedlyinvolved with the other one. 

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Thanks for everyone that is actually still reading I know it has been a seriously long time and I'm sorry about that. I've been busy finishing school. 

Thanks, Emma. 

Love ya.