Love & Misfortune

I'm saved....I think?

 I remember seeing my mom come over to my grandmas house to see us. it was rare to see my mom, so I knew when we got to see her we had to act as if everything was okay. I've always wanted to tell my mom all the bad things my grandma would do to us and my sisters. They never got hit as bad as me but I hated to see her lay her hands in a harmful way on them. She would always threaten us and say things to make us convince ourselves that nothing was wrong. At times my grandmas house wasn't so bad, my grandpa was the sweetest man you could ever meet; He would always call me beautiful and take me outside on the front porch to read all my favorite books to me.

(Clears throat)

Anyways back to why my mom came to visit, she had great news for us supposedly. Well that's what I heard at least. 

Mom- I was thinking that its not safe for us and the kids to be living in such a bad neighbor hood anymore.

Grandma- Yes but they've been in this house for as long as they can remember.

Mom- I want the kids to live with me again, living out here in valley heights isn't safe. Someone is either going crazy or getting shot down the block.

Both of them go quiet as if they remember what happened to the poor old man who got shot in his house not to long ago.

Mom- I want them to be able to play outside and me not worry about who might hurt them.

Grandma- Okay. I think this might be better for them, But what will me and there grandfather do?

Mom- Me and there father decided that it would be good for ya'll to come with us, so we are able to take care of ya'll and you can still see the kids.

Grandma- I think that's a great idea, well I will tell there grandpa!

Mom- Tomorrow we are packing as much as we can and leaving to the new house, I didn't want to say anything until the house was ready to move into.

After that I hugged my mom and watched her leave out the front door. 

"Here we go" I whisper, I already knew my grandma was going start bitching about how my mom wants us all of a sudden because were old enough to take care of our selves now.

Well that's what she always told us. 

Lets go back to the beginning a little, after my grandma took us in she would tell us all these horrible things of how my mom left us with her so she can hang out with her friends and party all night with my dad. Although I knew that wasn't true, there was just something in my heart that wanted me to believe that it was actually true.

 Me- Grandma aren't you happy we get move!

Grandma- Why so you can kiss you moms ass and tell her what I did to you huh?!

Me- No i.. it was just I was gonna turn 10 this year! so I thought that it would be cool to have my first birthday at the new house.

Grandma- Just shut up and go to the room. 

I walk to the room and I can still hear here talking, but this time shes not talking to me. My aunt was there to help with somethings around the house and had just sat down when I was talking to her. I could hear her saying " that stupid girl really thinks her mom would remember her birthday", she just started laughing afterwards as if it was something that was amusing to her. I cried all night but I was okay because I knew I was gonna be safe with my parents, they have not once laid their hands on me ever. " Tomorrow will be a better day, I'll be free from this prison and I can finally be happy" I whisper that to myself as I start slowly falling asleep.