Germangie - my everything

Key (1)

I've lost him, forever... Words can't explain what I going through right now. All I know is he threw away the key...
The key to my heart

I'll explain what has happened since Christmas Day 

~~~one week ago~~~
Christmas Day

A - Omg omg omg it's Christmas
V - yay merry Christmas, dad wake up

Everyone was so excited, especially me anyway I'm going to skip until the part where he gives me his present

G - Angie !
A - yeah
G - could I borrow you for a couple of minutes
A - sure
A - sooo what do you want
G - I just wanted to give you a present
A - aww thank you so much, you didn't have to
G - but I wanted to

It became really awkward and we just stared into each other's eyes and then he suddenly snapped out of it as if he remembered something important

G - Angie, I want u to open this in private... This evening. There's a message with it as well read it and think about it
A - ?
G - you'll understand when u read it
A - kk, anyway I'll just go get your present from the tree
G - you got me a present, you didn't have to buy me one but why didn't you give it me earlier with everyone else
A - well I thought you hadn't got me one so I decided not to give it you
G - oh ok, well thank you
A - it's no problem

~~~Later~~~

I picked up the little parcel German gave me earlier. It looked so perfect. It was wrapped in silver paper with little red snowflakes all over, there was a red ribbon around it and a perfect bow. I carefully unwrapped it and came across a box, it was a white jewellery box. I opened it and inside was the most beautiful necklace I had ever seen. It had a gold chain and was shaped as a heart, it was a locket and there was a beautiful gold casing in the shape of little hearts. The actually locket was a red ruby. There was a little hole on the side of it which was for a key... A key which I didn't have.

He said there was a note and indeed there was, he had tucked it into the lining of the box...

Dear Angie
My beautiful Angel

I hope you had a lovely Christmas Day, I hope you like the necklace and more importantly, I hope you will let me love you (You will understand what I mean later). If your wondering where the key for the locket is... Well I have it, the key to your heart, or I like to think so anyway.
Inside the locket there is another note and a picture. on New Year's Eve at exactly midnight I will ask you a question and if your answer is yes then we will bring the new year in together with a kiss. If your answer is no then you will get to keep the locket as a memory of me but it will never be opened... I will throw away the key I guess, forever and I will announce my engagement with Esmeralda officially and use the new year to forget about you and kiss Esme. If the date is still the 25th then she will be back tomorrow morning. My attitude towards you might change as soon as she arrives but it shouldn't change your answer. I know it must be hard for you to answer without knowing what the question is and what's at stake but I'm too much of a coward to ask you now in person and it's not right to put in into a letter.
I hope you give this a lot of thought and please meet me at the top of the stairs during the New Years party at exactly 11:50
You can tell me your answer before but I still want you to be there at 11:50
Remember I love you, that should help you decide your answer, also please don't ask me about this until the 31st
German

~~~New Years Eve~~~

I don't know what answer to give him, as soon as Esmeralda got back it was like he hated me or didn't even acknowledge I was there.., all he did was either say nothing or argue with me or shout at me for no reason. He's treated me like shit this whole week and I know he said he loves me but I don't believe that for a second anymore, I don't believe that he could treat me like that if he really loved me 💔

Anyway.. We're having a party, here, tonight and I have exactly 8 hours and 20 mins till I have to meet him but only 3 hours and 40mins till the party starts so I should start choosing what to wear...
In the end I chose a grey crop top, a black skater skirt with little gold hearts on it, black stilettos and my locket.

~~~Party~~~

Everyone is arriving now, I'm so nervous. Each minute spent is a minute closer to talking with German. I still don't know what to answer him and I want to answer no, all of me wants to answer no... Except my heart.

Oh god here he is now, well I might as well get it out of the way and tell him now

A - German
G - Angie, you have the necklace on
A - of course, it's so beautiful
G - compared to you it's nothing
A - anyway I have my answer
G - and I have the key, so should I open it
A - omg your unbelievable, you actually thought I would say yes after you've treated me like shit for the week, I don't believe you love me at all because you couldn't have treated me like that if you did. I'm sorry but I can't say yes
G - in so sorry Angie, let me explain
A - there's nothing to explain German
V - hey you two, could you possibly sing a song together, maybe a love song
A - can you just give me a minute to think
V - of course, it would just be so nice if the hosts were to sing together

G - what do you think
A - as much as I hate you right now I still love you and want to sing with you one last time and I have the perfect song
A - , I wrote it when you were about to marry Jade
G - when you told me you loved me and I denied you
A - exactly, this time I'm denying you
G - it doesn't have to be this way
A - but it does, as much as I love you, I couldn't live with you knowing you could treat me like that without a second thought
G - but
A - no German, even if I was going to say yes it still wouldn't work because there is a 12 year age gap between us, and most importantly Maria and Violetta so either way our love is hopeless
G - I...
A - meet me on the stage in ten

We've just finished the singing, it was perfect and at the moment I'm crying because it's such an emotional song. I found it awkward though especially when I sang the words 'I wanted you to be, the only one for me, my first, my last and everything in between'

We're alone now, at the top of the stairs, it's 11:50 and he already knows my answer but we're meeting anyway to say goodbye.

A - hey German
G - hi
G - that was a beautiful song, was it really about me
A - ...

I can't bare to look at him eye to eye cause every time I do I fall in love with her him again, but he managed to catch my eyes anyway, then I found my self leaning towards him, he was doing the same and then I finally felt his soft lips hit mine. At first it was a gentle innocent kiss but his arms found there way round my waist and my hands found there way to his hair and our bodies were pressed against each other. The kiss was now passionate and very forceful, I could feel the electric shock running down my spine and I felt like I was flying but then we heard the countdown start. We separated

A - I guess this is goodbye then
G - I thought
A - you thought I had change my mind but I haven't, I just needed to feel your lips on mine one last time
G - oh, well I better go to Esme then

As I watched him go to her and kiss he's it finally sank in that it was over between us, everything and I went in to my room and broke down into tears 😭