Germangie - my everything

Key (2)

It's been about a month since New Year's Eve, and I still haven't got over him, I see them kiss and hold hands and it breaks me inside, I can literally feel a little bit of my heart break each time I see them and my heart is slowly falling to pieces like I am. If I'm not at work or teaching Vilu then I sit my room and write my depressing love songs. I hardly eat anymore cause every time I sit down to a meal they're  there and it just makes me feel upset and sick inside. I always have puffy red eyes with dark circle which no amount of makeup can cover. I knew love was hard but this isn't hard, this is torture. The worst thing is I had the chance to be the one to hold his hand and kiss him but I screwed that up. I found out the reason he was treating me so badly as well...

1 day ago

A - German
G - what do you want Angie
A - do you mind if I use your office while your out cause my desk broke so I got rid of it
G - uh ok, I'll need when I get back though
A - yh that's fine, when will you get back
G - 2 or 3 hours
A - kk thank you so much
G - it's fine just don't break anything

Omg his office has changed, he's redecorated, he's also put a pic of Esmeralda on his desk. She's such a bitch, I've found out a few things about her but not enough to accuse her of anything yet, I decided to snoop around a bit to see if I could find anything suspicious but instead I found a box, a box which said I LOVE ANGIE on it but a d had been written on it so it now said I LOVED ANGIE and there was a broken heart 💔 next to it. I felt bad but I wanted to see what was inside... There were lots of pictures, two little boxes and... The key to my locket. I thought he would've thrown it out. I unlocked my necklace a found a picture of me him and Vilu, that was the perfect day. I then took the note out of the locket, took a deep breath and opened it, it said...

Dear Angie
My Angel

If your reading this then that means you said yes. I'm so happy you said yes, I'm sorry for all the notes and the secrets but I couldn't ask you face to face on Christmas Day, I needed to wait. Another reason was Esmeralda, I was so horrible to you and felt awful but it was so Esmeralda would never suspect me and you and so she wouldn't take the house away from us because she doesn't exactly like you. I don't know why Jade or Esme didn't like yo cause you are the most perfect, beautiful person I have seen.... You're an Angel. You and Vilu are my number one's, your my girls, Vilu's my cute little princess and your my beautiful angel. I love you Angie, so much, some people might say too much. It hurts sometimes but in the best way. I know you feel it's wrong but the heart wants what it wants right and I love you with everything in me and I know I might be 12 years older than you but I can't help it, I don't what I would've done if you said no. I know you feel the same way about me but your scared, so am I but we're in this together.
I love you
German

Back to present day

I just wish I said yes though, if I had, then everything would be perfect but instead I feel like I'm drowning in my own tears. Yesterday after I read the note I started crying and I opened one of the little boxes, it was empty, I realised it was from the ring he gave me when he dropped mine down the drain. I opened the other box and found, a note ? This one said 'I promise I will love you forever' and then I realised that underneath the note was a ring, a promise ring 💍💍💍

I then went upstairs and cut myself, I know I shouldn't but it made me forget my pain over him and focus on the pain of my side, bleeding...

I felt dizzy afterwards so I put a bandage on it and fell asleep. I've just woken now and they're out, again. I decided to play my new song on the piano.

The key
(By me)

The things we did
The things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile
again

I love you
But I let you go
And now all I feel is pain
Cause I know nothing will be the same

I love you baby don't you love me too
Please come back to me
Cause there's a lock on my heart and you are the key

When there's me
And when there's you
My life could light up the whole
world

But then she came into the picture
You left me all alone

I love you baby don't you love me too
Please come back to me
Cause there's a lock on my heart and you are the key

I thought we were meant to be together
But now I can see
You never knew what love was
You never knew the real me

I love you baby don't you love me too
Please come back to me
Cause there's a lock on my heart and you are the key

I love you baby don't you love me too
Please come back to me
Cause there's a lock on my heart and you are the key

And then I heard clapping so I turned round and saw him. We just stared into each other's eyes..

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Hey guys it's me

I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry I won't even try to find an excuse, I hope you can try to find it somewhere in your beautiful hearts to forgive me. Here are two chapters and I'm gonna try to do some more chapters but I'm not gonna promise cause I never keep them. I've got GCSE mocks soon but