Unconditionally (sequel to 'Remember?')

Honesty...

Grian's PoV

I followed Okami into her Classroom

"WHY'S THAT MAGGOT IN Here..." Rowen began shouting but trailed off when he saw my arms

"Maggot? What's really wrong" Rowen wasn't shouting which made my eyes water even more...

"Grian... You're allowed to cry here"

"She's right... But what have you done to yourself kid?" Rowen wasn't even calling me a maggot!

"Well um... when Roisin died I started drinking, taking these pills and well... the cuts"

"Grian... Did you... Do you want to die?" Okami asked

"Yes..."

"Why..."

"Because I feel like i'm already dead inside so i thought it wouldn't matter... I thought no one would care..."

"What about your parents?" Rowen questioned

I let a tear slip down my already tear stained face

" My mom's dead because... because... Of my dad" I looked at my shoes

"My dad would always hurt my mom sonce I was little but when I understood that she was getting hurt I tried standing up for her... which got me this..." I lifted up the hair behind my ear revealing a scar

Okami and Rowen came and hugged me

"I always thought that the strong ones were the ones who had muscles, who could fight... but I was wrong. You are stronger than any of your friends out there! Its people like you, people who can take the hits, be it mentally or physically, and get back up. Its not those who foght back. Its those who walk away! You're not a maggot, not even an earthworm! Your a Catapiller and soon you'll be at peace with the death of Roisin, you'll happy and you'll become a butterfly!" Now as Cheesy as Rowen'a speech was it was really kind! He's like the dad I never got!

"Thankyou! Both of you" I smiled as they hugged me

"If you need talk! Day or night! Just call and we'll listen!"

"thankyou"

I walked out of the classroom to be greeted by the rest of akademi high! Who seemed to have tears on their eyes. Before I could say anything I was swarmed by a stampeed of teenagers hugging me and saying things like ' Im so sorry' or 'We didn't know'

"SCHOOLS ENDING EARLY MAGGOTS SO GO HOME!" Rowen yelled

I walked out of the school with Taurtis and Sam.

We walked in awkward silence.

"Im sorry..." Taurtis whispered

"For what" I asked

"For not noticing, not being there, not listening, not checking up on you, not comforting you when I heard you crying... I didn't know it was this bad... I thought you were just going through the same things I was going through when I lost Salex... I didn't know you were trying to... to... to kill yorself!" He choked out the last sentance before bursting into tears and giving me a condsoling hug.

"Im sorry too... for the same reasons as Taurtis... We weren't there for you... we weren't very good friends..." Sam admitted

"Guys its okay... Its not the first time... Ive Be..."

"Wait what do you mean Its not the first time..." Taurtis interrupted

"Um... I had a tough time back home... but I dont really wanna talk about it..."

"Im not forcing you too but remember! We are here! And we will listen!" He smiled

I love my friends...

I love my teachers...

I love my classmates...

I love my school...

I love my town...

But I loved Roisin...

And she's gone...

Hopefully I wont lose all the other things I love...

(Hey guys! I know this chapters short but the main point was to tell anyone going theough a tough time, be it as serious as self harm, that it gets better! I know it's tough. You feel like no one cares but I do! If anyone ever needs to talk then you can simply private message me on wattpad or twitter and I will reply as soon as possible! Again, It gets better!)

H.O.P.E = Hold. On. Pain. Ends.

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