I Believe In You

Chapter 14: It's alright

Killian was still in his brother's lap but he wasn't crying any more. His eyes were dry and empty. No one had talked until Emma's voice made him stood up to face her.

"Killian?" She asked insecurely but she didn't have much to say.

"Are you ok?" He asked her kindly and grabbed her arm to look at her.

"Yes. Killian I'm so sorry. This was all my fault!" She exhaled.

"It's not, Emma." He looked at Liam and he understood that Killian wanted them to be alone for a while. When Liam went to the others Killian continued. "My father wanted to correct his mistakes. You have nothing to do with this." He said sadly.

"Do you really believe this?" She asked. He nodded and she couldn't prevent the question before escaping her mouth. "Why?" Her eyes were full of hope.

"I want to see the best in you." He mattered and Emma smiled. "I'm trying, Emma. I'm trying to remember anything. But I'm continuously failing."

"There's nothing coming back." It was just a sad observation and his smile faded as he noticed her disappointment.

"What about when you're with her? Is it more comfortable?" She bit her down lip the moment she asked but she needed to know how he was feeling.

He was surprised by her question. He knew how hard it was for her. "It is but... not as comfortable as it should be. I mean... she's so loving but... something doesn't feel right. Deep inside me I can feel it. None of it makes sense, none of it... none of it feels real anymore."

He was looking her deep at her eyes and she didn't know if she should feel happy for Killian's instincts or guilty because his past self was turning away from his first love. His voice brought her back to the present.

"Actually one thing does feel real. You." He confessed and he could swear she had stopped breathing.

"What?" She whispered. Hearing it was like music and every other thought just faded away.

"I know it sounds crazy." He added with a small laugh.

"I know it sounds crazy." She said insecurely but he interrupted her.

"Actually it sounds like music in this pirate's ears." He smiled at her and she smiled back before kissing him.

"But I swear that the only thing in this whole place that feels right is..." He took a moment to breath in some air but when he looked up a word escaped his lips. "Milah."

Emma needed to open and close her eyes several times to be able to get her voice steady before speaking. "Right... Milah."

"No." He rushed to explain. "She's coming."

"Killian!"

She turned away to see Milah rushing at him. She hugged him tightly and he accepted her hug.

"My God, are you alright?" She cupped his face with her hands and looked at him.

"I'm fine." He tried to smile. This was too much for him.

"Oh Emma I'm sorry for what you've been through. You must need your parents so badly now." She said innocently. "Don't worry, Killian's going to be fine with me. Right honey?"

She looked at him again and he gave her a small smile. She took his hand and they both started to walk away as Emma was standing frozen in her place. Her mother hugged her gently from behind and Liam sighed at her look.

"I'm sorry Emma." Liam, who had reached for her, breathed. "Give him time, everything's going to be back to normal." He promised.

"I'm not sure about this." She murmured, her eyes still on Milah and Killian.