I Believe In You

Chapter 21: We'll find a way

After his conversation with Henry time passed peacefully. Hercules was with them so they didn't need to search something or someone else. What they needed was to figure out a plan to save Megara. Killian wanted to speak with Emma, to say he was sorry but they were all together. Besides, he knew how pissed she would be with him and that he should give her time. So, now, he was lying on Milah's bed, with her in his hug, after they'd slept together. Avoiding her wasn't a solution. Although he had these intense feelings for Emma, Milah was his rock for many years after Liam's death. He couldn't forget so easily. He smiled ironically with his own thought. Well, Emma's family was believing that he did forgot so easily! However, Milah's voice brought him back to the present and he started to caress her hair slowly.

"Killian, I need to tell you something."

"What is it?" He asked sleepily and he left a small kiss on her shoulder.

She pulled up from his hug in order to face him and he let her. "I feel like... ever since you've come here. We've been together again... you're here but you're not...here."

He held his breath. He should know this was coming. Milah wasn't a fool and he indeed wasn't there.

"I know you say you're trying. And I know you've been through a lot but..."

"No. No, Milah." This wasn't going well and he needed to stop her.

She protested immediately putting her hand over his and interrupting him. "Killian, please, just... let me finish." She gave him a moment and when she saw he wouldn't talk, she continued. "I know it's been hard on you but it's also been hard on me. I wanted a family with you back then; I was waiting our reuniting here. To be honest, I was dreaming what it would be like if we had children. But I was gone and... at first I was upset but now... I'm relieved." She confessed. "If we had a kid, now... it would be a disaster."

"Aye." He agreed with a low voice and a small nod.

"We're not the same anymore, our relationship isn't the same. Something's changed. Something feels strange between us. I want to fix this. I want to fix us"

"Me too." He interrupted her. He scratched the back of his neck nervously but he didn't take his eyes away from hers.

"Do you?" She asked doubtfully. "Will you do that? Will you give us our best chance?"

He saw the hope in her eyes and he felt his being full of tears. If he had one wish right now, he would ask to stop feeling. He was so tired of feeling. "Aye" He whispered and caressed her face. "Look." He shallowed soundly to find his words. "... You and I... I know we should... I know we should be stuck together after I came here. And I want to make that work."

She smiled shyly and she took a deep breath. She turned around to look at the big clock and then she returned her eyes on his. "It's been your usual time to get up. You may want to go to your place and..."

"No." He interrupted her. He tried to keep Emma's image waking up and getting occupied with her morning routines away from his mind. "Why don't we have some breakfast together instead?"

"Okay." She said smiling and he kissed her cheek before both getting up.

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About an hour later he was opening his house's door. But when he did, he stood still in his place. Emma who had just woke up was getting inside the main room and heading to the bathroom. The door's sound made her turn around and her eyes widened when she saw him and his shocked look. His mouth was open but he didn't make an effort to speak. He just left exactly as he had come and she followed him curious.

"Killian?" She was running after him and he stopped some meters away to face her. "What was this?" She asked breathlessly.

"It's been one bloody hour." He complained.