Destiny

Dumbass

    Okay,first of all if your here to read my diary,how the hell did you find it?Did someone give it to you,because I know I didn't.Secondly I didn't even put my name in it so keep it,I don't care,plenty more where that came from.Anyway,if I did happen to give it to you then you know some of my deepest darkest secrets.*Looks you in the eyes and tells you to keep your mouth shut*.And I'm not one of those girls that curses a lot,but when I do,it's so bad you need to find some ear plugs unless you want me to make you die.Haha,that's not funny😒.

But whatever.So you probably know who I am but anyways,I'm Racheal,I'm seventeen and weird as hell.Im a virgin so no,if your reading this without my permission you won't find anything about me fucking some guy and then being pregnant.My life does have romance in it,so if your fussy  about love,leave!No one will see you leaving to go to the bathroom,I honestly don't care about your life.But I'm guessing you want to hear about mine.

Now I'm gonna tell you about you about my life,and I won't feel embarrassed at all for you information.So fuck you if you think I care.

"Hey,what are you doing tomorrow?"Stephanie asks.

"Nothing,wbu?"I text back.

"Going to the mall with Melanie!"Stephanie replies.

"I wish I could come,but I'm still sad over me and Chase's break-up from Friday."I text back.

"Listen,it's been two days,you need to get over him already!"Stephanie replies.

"I know that but you didn't spend two years of your life with him!😓😥"I text back.

"Well,me and the girls are going out Wednesday,wanna come?"Stephanie texts.

"Sure I have nothing better to do seeing as I'm now officially single.😩😚."I text.

"So you're saying your okay?"She texts.

"Yeah,I guess so,us and the girls haven't gone out in a while,huh?" I reply.

"Yes,four weeks to be exact!😛"She texts.

"You've been keeping count?"I text.

"Of course,I knew you guys wouldn't!"She texts.

"You're so weird."I text.

"Yeah,I'm weird and you're my best friend."She replies.

"You have a point there,bye babe!😳😍😘 I reply.

"Cya later,Wednesday!"She texts.

"Okay,bye cya!"I reply to end the conversation at that.

So,now you probably know about Stephanie,what do you think?I mean I've known her since we were babies out of our mothers womb.I know everything about her as she does me.So we have no secrets to tell each other as we already know what's all on the table.So if this is her reading my diary I hope she enjoys reading what she already know on a screen,with my amazing type-writing on it.

So if you would like to know a little more about me here it goes,My full name is Racheal Miles Stephens.Im seventeen.5'8 which is an average height in my family.I have dark brown straight hair which falls down my back.I have piercing beautiful blue eyes,saying that in speaking for myself.I'm also very curvy and I have a six pack,well I had one so that definitely counts for something,right?

I've never had a relationship longer than five years which was between my soon to be husband,until I found out I loved my best friend,I promised not to tell his name,not even to write it in you Angel,that's how strong of a bond we had.But he was so damn handsome and attractive.Why did all the good guys have to be a best friend or taken already?I'll never find someone like him ever again!

So continuing my story.

Let's tell you about some of my friends.

Stephanie is 5'6,she has blonde short hair that usually leads people to believe that she's some type of casual person,but she's not.She has dark deep chocolate brown eyes,which are very chic may I add.She's not really the type to date people,she believes in so much more.SURPRISE she's still a virgin too.Stephanie's the type to save her body for her soul mate not a random lover willing to throw himself at her.

One time she was nearly about to become a singer,because she got so many compliments from winning the talent show last year.We both know I would've won,except I didn't sign up,I was nearly done with all the tears I had cried when we celebrated that night and got drunk as hell.Did I forgot to tell you she is sexy as hell,that's saying a lot from a girl who was a lesbian in third grade,after nearly making out with her best friend.

There's also second best friend Melanie,don't be fooled by her typical goodie-two shoes name,she's anything but that.Melanie is 5'9 so she's the tallest out of all four of us.Melanie and I are like twins and I think Steph gets jealous from time to time,I mean who wouldn't?Melanie has cold iced blue eyes,naturally red hair so no she didn't dye it,dumbass.

She's not at all curvy,like period,but she makes that up with being the sexiest 17 year old you could possibly know and that's saying a lot.I've only known her for two years but everyone can see how comfortable she makes you feel when your around her.She's not normal,but she's not crazy like people call her,she calls it creativity.But whatever,back to me!

"Hey babe."Chase says.

"Don't call me that,I hate you!"I say back to Chase.One thing I can't understand is why would he break up with me knowing my birthday was nearly four weeks away,what a jerk.

"What should I call you then?"Chase says back to me?

"Call me by the name my mother named me when I was born!"I shout at him through anger and sadness.

"Racheal,I'm really sorry."Chase says.

"No,your not,you just don't want me to tell my dad so you won't get kicked out of school for breaking his little babies heart.

"Whatever!"Chase yells back at me.

Is it weird that I still kinda love him?Please call an insane asylum right now,before I go to jail for first-degree murder.If you knew me,you wouldn't think that.But there's only so much you know about someone you think you knew until they surprise you because their was something that you didn't know,and that something was so important.

Shit,now I'm out of breath.Hold on,okay let's continue.I'm a songwriter and singer so don't you dare try to steal my lyrics when I write in my diary.I do have legal paper work,so don't try to sue me for my own song.This is just a taste of my power.

This song is called The girl behind the mask.

"This is me,the me I thought I would never see again.She disappeared so long ago,I thought that was the end.I was made to become something better than I am,but I'm hurt from all the little things I could never understand.So I have brought myself today,I am walking up on the stage to tell you all this is the real me ,this is the girl behind the mask.The girl behind the mask,the one you thought you knew,it was really me hiding in her shadow.Could you see the tears,the ones you thought were real,that hid something on the inside,that must never be revealed.And as time past,I was left to age fast,but no one ever saw the lines creasing in my face.The confusion is just a delay from all the time I spent loving you,but you never loved me back so I knew it not to be true.If I hurt you I would take it back,but you not saying sorry caused me to fall off the track.So I guess I'm the girl behind the mask,I'm just an ugly girl to you!Tell me how to be perfect for you because I thought this was my life too.If I let you fuck me would you bind me up and chains,telling me to drop to my knees?I'm the same crybaby I used to be,don't you remember the girl you said sorry too,the one who made you hurt too?Aren't you even concerned about my well being,well to answer your question,I'm okay.These scars you left are certain to heal fast because someone has bandaged them up for me.I'm not as scared as I used to be,I'm as strong as a bear,fiercer than a lion,don't you know what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.We could play dolls are day,but is it me who see you,or you who sees me,me I can't tell at all,the girl behind the mask she decided to leave me alone,so I no longer carry that burden on my shoulder. 

That's just a little taste of my lyrics if you enjoyed follow me at Divapuppylover on YouTube,you don't have to,I'm not desperate like that.I will update every Wednesday and Friday,Saturday.Only if I can.