Flowershop

Chapter Twenty Seven

Sitting under the trees, not a word was said. Kiku didn't pry about his uneasiness of his future, although he desperately wanted to know. But knowing better than discreetly asking and making Alfred uncomfortable like he would do to anyone else, he held his silence and sat in the shade.

Alfred had began to shove more food in his mouth, probably too embarrassed to talk about anything at the moment.
After a few minutes of awkward silence, Kiku decided he should be the line to break it. He tried to think of something to say, but everything he had in mind was just too... Sudden? He knew Alfred wouldn't mind that at all, but he didn't want to seem so calculating to Alfred. He wanted to tell Alfred another embarrassing story about his childhood, but it seemed that was all he ever talked about. And Kiku was not creative.
So, in the end, he ended up taking the option any regular person would do. He spoke about his embarrassing childhood stories!

"Uh, you know when I was in about... Eighth grade I think? And... Oh my God..." He said, laughing a little, his face slightly pink from embarrassment. Alfred instantly was interested. Kiku usually never got embarrassed talking about his school years, so if he became embarrassed now, that had to mean this one was a good one. He laughed a little more before continuing.
"So... Eighth grade. A big year! Everyone was growing up and getting into relationships, realizing who they were, you know, stupid stuff like that. I on the other hand, had zero experience with anything of the sort whatsoever." He paused, seeming holding back laughter. Embarrassed or genuine, Alfred couldn't tell, but he continued giving Kiku his undivided attention nonetheless. "So, you know, around that time I started to realize I wasn't straight. Sexuality became a big question mark that would never leave my mind, and I had a hard time distinguishing thoughts," he said, laying down on his back. He sighed, as if he told this story everyday.

"So. When I finally accepted it, reluctantly might I add, I had told no one. Not even my brothers knew... So, Kumi Jung.. Haha, I still remember her name...! But anyways, Kumi Jung was a very popular girl at school. Everyone wanted to be seen with her. I remember she always had a group of people around her. But one day, she decided she wanted me," He said, an underlying tone of surprise even now. "I had no interest in girls... But I didn't want anyone to know. So as she asked me, I put on my most happy face and accepted, therefore eliminating any suspicion. It was a little hard, but everyone bought it for a few weeks," he said, laughing a bit at the end.

"So, you know, I treated her nicely, everyone envied me, stuff like that. Suddenly I became the most picture perfect guy, which I didn't like, because a lot of people would always try to talk to me, and I do horribly with a lot of people. And I thought, 'maybe if I just tell myself I like it, I will, and this will actually become decent. It'll become normal and people will stop trying to talk to me, and my nervousness will fade away,'" he said, this time turning to Alfred. "But, I was wrong of course. I had to learn the hard way that no amount of lyingf to yourself will really change anything," he said, sighing and turning to face the other way.

"So everytime I went to school I was extremely paranoid and nervous. Nervous people would find out it was a façade, nervous that mg reputation would be ruined and I'd have to deal with teasing everyday. I swear, this whole ordeal gave me white hairs at the time.... I even tried to stay home from school because of it a couple of times, and the sickness wasn't hard to fend. The fear of being discovered left me jumpy and queasy, and my parents actually bought it, I though looking back on it, they probably knew something was up. Anyways, the time I had been dreading had come. So Kumi, being the popular girl she was, wanted to kiss me to prove to everyone that we were serious and I loved her," he said, shaking his head, a smile on his lips. "So, here I was, in front of a biiig crowd. In my head it seemed to be the whole school! So basically, I was very frightened by this time. I was shaking slightly and I grew more panicked by the minute. So as she leaned in to kiss me, I," He paused, smirking and laughing a bit. Alfred, already predicting what was coming, gasped in shock. "No. You didn't." He said, eyes wide. Kiku, unable to control himself, started laughing uncontrollably. "I did! As she leaned in to kiss me, I got so nervous that I ended up vomiting all over the most popular girl in school," he said, covering his mouth to stiffle his laughter. "Oh my god! What happened?!" He said, not really sure if he should laugh or not.

"Well, after getting over the immediate shock of what just happened, I threw up again, not on her this time, and ended up going home and crying. Now when Leon and Yong Soo got home, they immediately knew what happened and tried their best to actually be nice that day. I don't even know if they saw it or heard of it, but they knew. And when my parents heard that I actually got sick on a student, Ivan got as white as a sheet and my mom didn't know really know whether to laugh or not," he continued, subconsciously ripping out grass repeatedly. "But after that, I was nobody again, and that's how I liked it. Thank god that happened- I got a lesson from that that I would carry for the rest of my life, probably," he said, sitting up again.
"But still dude, that's pretty good. Getting the most popular girl in the whole school. Even I haven't done that before!" He started laughing at his own comment, and laid himself down next to Kiku. As Look turned his head to watch him laugh, he let a smile creep on his face. He was happy that even though he had to share the most traumatizing story with him, it had at least had made him laugh like his always had for Kiku. And that was enough to make the both of them forget about problems for the time being.

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Wooooww another really short, really long overdue chapter that made my whitened hair fall out. I pretty much think of updating this fic everyday but there's just not enough time in the day, dammit! Anyways, let's hope the next chapter isn't so overdue jfcc