THE LOVE OF MY LIFE | SAL VULCANO/ BRIAN QUINN

DICK+SUZE <3 4EVA '05

I keep driving towards the café while my phone keeps ringing. Why would Richard want to talk to me now? After what seemed like a hundred calls I finally picked up his phone.

"What?", I screamed.

"Suze. Baby. It's me Dick", he said. He sounded happy.

"I know. The fuck do you want." I am so irritated right now.

"It's you. It's always been you. I've been so stupid. I made a mistake. Let's start over." He actually sounded genuine. But I remember that Richard can never be genuine.

"No Richard. I do not want to see you, hear from you, or think of you. Yes you've been stupid. You do not get to fuck up and apologise. Enjoy hell with Freya.", I scream it all in a breath. Richard really does something to me.

"Its me baby, Dick. You love me. You always have. I am the love of your life and you're mine. You don't love this Sal guy. You're fucking his friend. That's a new low for you baby.", he said. So he is following me. Why is my life full of fuckboys.

"No Richard I loved the idea of you. Of us. But there is no us and why don't you go back to your whore?", I screamed.

"Why do you keep asking me to go back to her? I want you. You want me. Let's run away together. Just like the old times."

While I'm tempted to agree I don't and I say, "You knocked her up. What's wrong with you?" This fucking psycho.

"She's a big girl. She can take care of herself. It was just sex baby. I love you. I'll see you at this café you're going to. That dress is gorgeous." So he's definitely following me and has probably tapped my phone.

"I could've had you if I wanted but now that I think of it you'd probably screw me over just like you screwed over that whore. Why do you forget wearing condoms?"

"Oh my god! No! Why didn't you..."

I interrupted him, "Yes you knocked me up too. I aborted the baby. You know why? The baby deserved better, I deserved better. So fuck you asshole." I cut the call and I start crying.

.......

Back in 2005

"I love you Dick!", I say in a drunken haze. Richard and I had been drinking some great whiskey which I lifted from Byron's personal collection.

"I love you too Suze!", he said while snorting a line. We sure loved to party. And he kissed me. It turned out to be a heavy and passionate make out session and we tore off each other's clothes and had sex.

"Oh... umm... cum in my mouth", I say while he's inside me. He doesn't take it out in time as usual and he comes inside me. He collapses on top of me and we kiss. I was so gonna marry him. Dick+Suze 4eva <3

We did a couple of more lines and drank some more whiskey and did some more lines and partied hard. We partied the whole night. I love Richard Vernon so fucking much.

In the morning my sleep is interrupted by a call. Its Connor.

"Susan, darling I'm so sorry. I love Roger. I think I am gay."

"I know Connor. You said that blatantly to me. More than once. I don't care. I fucking hate you. Don't call me again. Ever."

"Are you ok?", he sounded concerned.

"Just hungover. ", I really was. I lit up a cigarette.

"Are you hanging out with that Vernon character? He's literally the worst."

"No Connor, you're the worst. Fuck you. Don't ever call here."

"Your parents want to see you. We're at brunch."

"Sure I'll be there at around an hour. I'll tell them to make you fuck off."

"You're clearly sick. Get help."

"No Connor you're sick. You need help.", and he disconnected. Richard got up and kissed me, rubbing his erection at my butt. I suck his member. I love him.

We get dressed to go to brunch. I met Richard through Connor. He used to buy weed off of him. Then Connor left me in college for boys to explore but he identified as a gay man. I was so humiliated. I hooked up with many people but it was so bad I wanted to die. I called Richard for drugs and we ended up doing coke and fucking each other and it had been so for an year now. Today Vera and Byron will meet Richard.

We reach there and it went pretty decent minus the fact that my parents although were on good terms with Richard's family they knew of his deal and made me get a blood test. It was positive for cocaine, weed and a couple of prescription drugs. They had security throw Richard out and put me into rehab where I ran from twice. They almost disowned me and I moved in with Richard.

Living with Richard turned out to be a mess for when we weren't drunk or high we fought a lot. It wasn't rosy anymore and since his family and mine cut me off we fought a lot more until one day he just didn't show up for a month. I called his friends but they shunned me too. I later found that he was shacking up with Freya Kaye. So in a year my love and my friends shunned me like I was some leper. Fuck them.

I decided to go back home but I threw up. I had throwing up for a while now. I went to the drugstore and bought a couple of tests. They were all positive. Apparently I had been pregnant for two whole months. I had been using drugs and alcohol so avidly. My life was definitely in the crapper. I almost missed one and a half year of college and I was pregnant. I called up Connor and we went to New Hampshire to this discreet clinic where they aborted the baby.

Connor and I never talked of this again. I got my shit together, went to rehab, studied and topped my college and became best of friends with Connor again.

.......

PRESENT

Only Connor knew but I told the worst secret of my life to Richard and Quinn in one day. I fucked up. As I drive towards the café I get a text from Richard.

"I'm there babe. Come quick. Your coffee is getting cold.-R"

I call up Quinn in my irritated and frazzled state and he decided to come. I judged Quinn wrong. He's an amazing and dependable man. I think I'm falling for Brian. What the fuck am I going to do? Brian called me up to tell me that he's reached the café and I reach in ten minutes. I may look calm and poised but I'm a frazzled bunch of nerves. Richard does that to me.