Dust off your highest hopes (Taylor Swift- Ed Sheeran story)

I'll hold you through the night until you smile

I'll hold you through the night until you smile

"I'm sorry miss Swift but we can't find the heartbeat" they find out about the miscarriage two days ago, they were crushed, it was their second appointment, but there wasn't a heartbeat, the doctor said that it happened sometimes, that it shouldn't affect her fertility. He asked his mom to take Anne with her and his dad to spent the weekend because Taylor wouldn't stop crying and asked him to make sure that Anne didn't see her in that state.

The afternoon after they found out had been the worse, after the doctor made the curettage and allowed them to go home, they both couldn't stop crying. Ed tried to be strong for her but seeing her like this made his heart break. Taylor felt sad, desperate, she just wanted someone to explain to her why, it wasn't fair for them, her mind was asking questions that thank god she didn't say them at loud, why now that she was older and it was the right guy?, not that she didn't love her daughter but on that pregnancy everything went smoothly and it wasn't the right time or guy, but with Ed she pictured her life with Anne and their new baby, how such a great father Ed would be, but it was all gone and she couldn't do anything about it but to cry.

That night was the worse night ever, Taylor wouldn't stop crying, Ed simply held her kissing her head and saying "it's ok Love, let it out" he held her until she eventually cried herself to sleep, now it was his time to cry, even though he didn't carry that baby inside of him, he was so happy when he found out, he wanted to experience everything, the first kick, finding out the gender and now it was all gone.

Taylor woke up in the middle of the night to the sound of some crying, she quickly realized that Ed wasn't in bed with her, she saw the lights of the living room on, she wrapped her robe around her and walked into the living room, Ed was there, he didn't hear her enter the living room, he had the picture of the first ultrasound in his hand, she didn't move towards him, she didn't want to startle him. Ed kept looking at the picture and passing his hand through his face, he let out a sob, one that broke Taylor's heart, she tried to control a sob that was threatening to slip from her mouth but she couldn't, Ed looked up and saw her, he made a gesture indicating her to sit on the sofa by his side, she walked towards him and saw the tears streaming down his face, she wiped them and kissed his cheek, he placed his head on her shoulder and her head on top of him, they stayed quiet, both trying to calm themselves " Are we going to be ok after this?" he looked at her, cupped her face in his hands and kissed her lightly on her lips "yes, we will be ok. We have to... we have Annie to look after" Taylor nodded but tears kept coming from her eyes "I feel like I failed you" she whispered "No, just no... don't say that Tay, you didn't do anything wrong" she looked down " but maybe if I rested a little more or didn't stress myself over college" he shook his head, she couldn't blame herself, the doctor said that sometimes it happened " you heard the doctor love, sometimes this happens and there is no reason behind it, don't blame yourself" Taylor shook her head " What if I'm not able to have more children, Ed I can't do that to you" she was so fragile right now, even though she was really tall she looked so small " Darling the doctor said it shouldn't affect you like that, if we don't have more kids I won't mind having only Anne to take care, don't worry about that right now" he wiped her tears away " let's go back to bed Tay, tomorrow will be better". They laid in the bed, Ed with his arms wrapped around her, he kissed her head "Goodnight Love, I love you" he whispered "I love you too baby".

The morning came and the pain hurt a little bit less, Ed woke up first, he had to get at least some kind of smile from her today, he couldn't bare the sight of that really sad face again, the guilt on her eyes even though there was nothing neither of them could do about it, he kissed the side of her head and got up from bed. He went to the kitchen, trying to find something to cook for breakfast, he received a call from Andrea "Ed what happened? Your mom called me saying that you asked her to take Anne for the weekend but didn't say anything else" Ed sighed, he didn't want to breakdown again "We were pregnant Andrea, we ... god... we were almost three months along and yesterday the doctor couldn't find the heartbeat... we had a miscarriage, Taylor couldn't stop crying and didn't want Anne to see her like that" Ed couldn't control the tears "Are you guys ok? Do you need me to go to UK?" Ed wiped his tears "I don't know, I have to see how Taylor is doing today".

He called his mom and explained the situation to her; she was really sad and told him that Anne was ok, that she would bring her whenever they felt ready. Ed asked his mom for her recipe for a delicious cake she made, Imogen stayed on the phone while Ed cooked, he even talked to Anne for a little bit "Daddy when am I coming home?" Ed sighed "Soon cutie, but mommy isn't feeling great" Ed missed his daughter; maybe she could make things better "is she at the hospital?" Ed sighed, he wanted to tell his daughter the truth but she wouldn't understand " she is at home cutie, but it's best if you stay at grandma for a little bit, until mum feels better" the little girl stayed quiet for a bit " can I talk to her?" Ed looked over to the master bedroom, Taylor still asleep " She is still sleeping cutie, I'll tell her to call when she wakes up ok?" the girl quickly answered " Ok, love you daddy" Ed smiled a little bit " love you too Annie"

The fire detector went off after he opened the oven door and Taylor quickly made an appearance on the kitchen, she saw Ed trying to deactivate the fire alarm and a cake mold on the kitchen top, she couldn't help but let a little smile come to her lips and a light laugh escape her mouth "is that a laugh coming from those lips?" Ed came closer to her and kissed her lips lightly, she nodded "how are you feeling today?" she laid her head on his chest and looked up " I'm better, still sad though... you?" he kissed the top of her head " same, I tried to make cake for you but it looks like it burned" Taylor looked over his shoulder " let me see maybe I can fix it" she walked to the kitchen and looked at the cake " let's see if it is edible" Ed gave her a mock hurt face " I'm sure it is" he said, she walked around and grabbed a knife and cut a slice " you try it" she said to him " why me?" she offered him the slice of cake again " you cooked it you eat it" he laughed a little, it was tough but they both were sure they would make it.

AN: more drama than what I'm used to, hope you like it please comment