lugubrious; m.e + c.d

0.7

*Amber P.O.V*

After I put my luggage in the compartment above the seats, I sat next to the window. There was no one sitting next to me, or so I thought. Matt came and gave me a small smile. I smiled back. After he put his luggage away, he sat next to me.

"So I guess you're going back to New York?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yup. I'm nervous." I admitted.

"Why? Didn't you live there since you and Alicia were babies?" He asked.

"Yeah but we spent more of our lives here. It's going to be different coming back to New York." I explained. He nodded understandingly.

"But I do have one more question." He said.

"Okay, shoot." I said as I look at him.

Before he could speak, the flight attendants announced that the ride was going to be long and all that safety stuff. I put on my seat belt and turned off my phone. Matt did the same. I felt plane moving and ready to fly.

Right now, I was shaking. I'm scared of planes. My stomach drops as I feel the plane going up. I let out shaky breaths which caused Matt's attention.

I remembered the last time when I was in a plane, there was a turbulence. I was little at the time so I thought the plane was crashing down. I watched too many movies and I thought I was going to die. Ali wasn't afraid. She was laughing at me but our mother scold her and she shut right up. I remember my mom telling me to calm down as I was screaming and crying.

"Hey, you okay?" Matt asked. I nodded.

"Fine. Just scared of planes that's all." I said shakily. I had my hands on my lap as they were shaking. I took deep breathes but they weren't working. I felt like I wasn't breathing but I'm trying not to make a scene.

Oh god, please not another panic attack.

I look back to see Ali looking at the window while Cameron is trying to talk to her. I really needed her right now. She was the only one who could calm me down. I would go to the bathroom but I can't get up right now, we had to stay in our seats.

Oh god, please just go away. Just calm down.

I rested my head back while I was just looking up at the ceiling. I closed my eyes as I tried to breathe but it wasn't working. I could feel a lump in my throat but I tried to swallow it. Tears were coming out but I forced them back in.

Then, I felt a hand on top of mine. I open my eyes to see Matt's hand. I look at him as he gave me a reassuring smile. Then I felt calm. My breathing felt normal, the tears weren't trying to come out, my hands wasn't shaking no more. All I felt was butterflies in my stomach.

"Don't worry, I'm here. We'll get through this." He said calmly. I smiled and nodded. He intertwined his fingers with mines as he smiled back. I felt my cheeks go red but I hope he doesn't notices it.

"Thank you." I mumbled.

*Few minutes later*

After Matt tried to calm me down, I turned on my phone to see missed phone calls and text from my mom and my step dad. Oh god. I unlocked my phone and saw my mom texts.

Amber where are you?

Is Alicia with you?

Amber please answer back

Where are you???

Amber if you don't text back, I'm calling the cops

Amber please answer me are you okay are you hurt

Amber call me please

I turned off my phone, not wanting to continue. If I continued, I'll cry. I hate crying in front of everyone. I only cry in front of Ali since she is my sister. It just makes me so sad imagining my mom crying to see her two daughters missing. But we will be back.

"Amber, are you okay?" Matt asked. I nodded.

"I'm fine." I lied. He looked at me concern.

"You could tell me Amber. I'll help you." He said. I look down, rubbing my temples.

"It's just my mom. I turned on my phone and saw messages from her. Telling me to call her or asking me where am I. I just feel so bad. She must be so worried right now." I said, feeling a lump in my throat.

"Then why'd you leave?" He asked. Should I tell him? He is trying help me.

"If I tell you this, please don't tell Cameron or to any of your friends. Only Ali knows this and she wouldn't want me to tell you this but I feel like I could trust you." I said. He nodded.

"I won't tell no one. I promise." He said as he looked straight in my eyes. I could tell he was very serious so maybe he won't tell no one.

"Two years ago, I was in a relationship that wasn't very good. He was very abusive to me but act all sweet whenever my parents or Ali was there. I couldn't leave him. I was so stupid because I loved him. Then one day, he was beating me to the point I had to go to the hospital. My mother saw and she called the police. He was arrested but I was in a bad shape." I explained. My eyes were getting teary but I blinked them away.

"Then today, I saw him. Outside the frozen yogurt shop. He was supposed to be in jail for five years but I guess he got bailed out. He saw me and Ali knew. That's why she suggested to runaway and go to New York. For he won't hurt me or even get close to me again." I finished.

"Wow Amber I'm so sorry." He said as he held my hand again. The butterflies in my stomach came back again as I blushed slightly.

"It's fine. I'm far away from him now. He's no longer in my life." I said as a tear dropped down to my cheek. I quickly wiped it away but Matt caught me. Great, now he knows I'm crying.

"I'm just glad you're safe right now. But don't cry, I'm always going to be here for you. You could always talk to me. You could always come to me when you're at your worst. I'll always be here for you." He said as he put a strand of my hair behind my ear. I didn't even noticed it was covering my face.

"Thank you Matthew. That really means a lot." I said. He smiled.

Oh, that smile is putting me through hell.

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Hi guys! I finally update! Oh my god I'm such a bad writer but I'm back. I hope you like this even though it's so sappy but I don't know where all that came from. Vote and comment what you think.

~amber - angel_girl0

Ali- paradryl