Live.My.Life.

Chapter 8

When we arrived home, well it doesn't feel like home it feels like old times when I visited them when I was younger. They were already waiting for me. I said bye to Selena and ran to my grandparents. They huged me and my grandpa also cried. He misses me a lot when I'm somewhere else. I decide to go and sleep.

*The next morning*

When I woke up there were noise in the kitchen so I thought it'd be my grandma making breakfast but it wasn't grandma....it was Justin. Wait what?! JUSTIN?? "What are you doing here?" I said still tired, sad and also a bit happy. He came towards me and kissed my forehead. How I miss that. "Good morning beautiful." He said with a soft voice. No way this isn't my Justin. This has to be a twin. Or a robot. My Justin would be still asleep or being on a party. Or is that the old Justin? I don't know, it's been too long. "What are you doing here?" I raised my voice now. "I wanna spend time with you, is that too much to ask for?" "What about yes?! Remember we brok-" "Don't act like that. I know you missed me as much as I missed you and I know you still love me as much as I love you." My jaw dropped. What is he saying? "Ha ha Justin you wish I did and no I don't." "Well you kinda do because I know that you talked with Selena yesterday and that you told her everything and by the way you look fucking sexy when you try to act mad." He said in response while having a smirk on his face. But he's right, like always. Every fucking word he said is true. True. True. And true. Sometimes I hate that he knows me so well but I also love it. "Don't you have a party do celebrate?" I tried to change the topic. "No. Since I had the fight with some people I don't do that." he paused "I know I have been making a mistake and I know that I hu-" "That you hurted me with fucking another girl on our couch? Justin yes you hurted me and hell yes every word you just said is true. I still love you but you hurted me a way too much! Like we were always happy and then you became such an a-" "ASSHOLE! I know that and I'm sorry." Now he looks on the ground and he has his puppy look in his face. Doesn't matter how hard I try, I can't say that he is wrong. He is right. I just wish I could kiss him...this is going to be much harder then I thought. Justin is good in winning. If he wants something matters what, he'll fight for that. He'll fight for it and win it. That's what I know. And it alway ends like that. "Listen Justin, I still love you because I was always hoping somewhere under the party Justin who drunk so much alcohol that he was treating his girlfriend like shit would be still my Justin. The Justin who was making me laugh, who never wanted to lose a 'I love you more' fight, who were listening. Just...I missed and I still miss the boy I fell in love with.That's all I wanted, but it never happened." Now there were a silence. After some minutes Justin looked me in my eyes. His brown eyes melting through me. They make me weak. Fuck. He comes torwards me. "Listen" he started "I don't want you to forgive me if I hurted you too much." he paused licking his lips....this boy...fuck no Cathie you want the old one back don't lose now you're good. "But I want you back, I won't date another girl, I won't drink alcohol anymore, I won't work anymore that much...I give it all up for you and move ba-" "NO! Don't go back here! You gave up everything for us. I can't let you give up everything again you shouldn't do that. Just change to the old one back." "Bu-" "Justin please! Your fans make you more happy than anything else! An-" "DON'T SAY THAT, DAMN IT BITCH!!" Did he yelled at me?....It's all just a lie. He wouldn't change and I was about to believe him.....I step back and turn around. I don't want him to see me crying. "Ba-" "LEAVE JUSTIN! FUCK YOU! GO AHEAD AND NEVER COME BACK!" There were a silence and I can feel his eyes filled with tears and a sad look. As he tries to touch me and hold me I push him as hard as I can away and run upstairs to my room. I slam the door behind me and fall on the ground. Downstairs I can hear him screaming 'FUCK" and crashing the front door. I just wanna get in bed and never come out again. His words hurt me so much. They're in my head "Don't say that, damn it bitch!" they hurting my heart. It stings. I don't know how long I have cried but I cried me asleep what felt like ages.