Two days. I have now gone two days without eating and I don't know how much longer I can go without. My stomach feels like it is eating itself. I have no energy to move and I am sure that if he comes for me today, I will end up caving or not being able to fight back. It's hard to breathe or move or think straight and my head is a scary mess. I have delusions where I am so sure i am actually being rescued and then reality smacks me in the face in the form of Jasons fist. The nightmares vary but the always have the same outcome. Jason gets what he wants and in the end Dante is dead. I have nothing to do but sleep and I can't bear to close my eyes because everytime I do.... all I can see is his lifeless eyes and it breaks my soul. I feel my sanity slowly slipping away.
Every now and then I hear howls in the distance and sometimes I feel like I can hear Dante talking in my head. Encouraging me to hold on. That hes coming. I laugh out loud at how absurd I am, even in my delusions. I laugh and I can't stop and it bleeds into sobbing. I have to end this. As the thought enters my head I perk up. I can't believe I didn't think of it sooner. I wont be missed, and it's one last way to deny him a victory over me. I just need to figure out how to do it. I look around and the room is so small and sparse that, really, the only things in it are the bed, my belongings stuffed under said bed, and a dome light. Nothing. My brain cant focus enough for me to plan this correctly. I laugh at my absurdity. How does one plan correctly how to kill themself. I just lay there staring at the ceiling waiting for him to show up because honestly, I dont think I could do it anyways.
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Broken and Shifting (book 2) #wattys2016
RomansaShifters went public a few years back and Skylar always held out hope that she would find someone with that mate for life quality, shifter or not. All her life Skylar has been groomed to be a trophy wife for a boyfriend her parents hand picked for h...
