My safety blanket

Chapter 1

My chest was tight trying to let air into my lungs. My eyes stung from the tears that were pouring out. My legs felt like jelly and they wanted to collapse but my feet kept moving forward. They were taking me no where in particular, just anywhere away from here.

My mind was racing, going over the scenes of what had just happened. I couldn't bare the pain, it just hurt so much. I couldn't believe she was gone. My world had just disappeared from under my own two feet and nothing was now holding me up.

I stumbled on my feet and fell to the ground. I held my knees in close to my chest and hugged them tightly. I felt like I was going to be sick and tried hard to put that thought aside.

"WHY?" I screamed out, letting out all my anger and pain. I screamed and cried harder but this wasn't going to achieve anything.

I stood up again, my legs wobbled underneath me. My phone started buzzing in my pocket. It was mum. I ignored it and kept running.

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"GET IN MUSHROOM..WE'RE GOING SHOPPING!" I yelled out my car window beeping the horn as I saw Tiarna sitting in her front garden.

I'd just got P's and i was surprising Tiarna.

"OH MY GIDDY AUNT! YOU GOT THEM! WOOOOO!" She came running over and jumped in the car giving me the biggest hug. "Congratulations! Bubble head. I'll be right back, just let me grab some money." She let out a giggle and ran inside her house.

"Where to first?" I asked with a grin while Tiarna put her seatbelt.

"Hmm well.. I'm quite hungry. Kebabs and a boost?" She asked with a big smile.

"Then sit by the beach?" I asked pulling out of her drive way.

"Absolutely!" She gasped and soon we were starting on our new adventure together.

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Flashbacks kept running through my mind. Remembering all the memories of me and Tiarna. They continue to play like a broken record.

It seemed like I was running for hours. I had found myself heading towards the park bench that held so many memories.

"Ahhh" I let out a little scream as I tripped and knocked over a person. "I'm s..s..so sor..r..ry." I tried speaking between catching my breathe and hold back tears.

"It's fine, I wasn't really watching where I was going." The persons voice was calm and relaxing, he also had an accent. "Ohh... are you ok?" He looked at me noticing that I've been crying and he sounded so concerned.

"I'm fine." I tried to hide my face, I didn't dare look up at the person. I couldn't let anyone really see just how broken I am.

"No you're not. You're crying" the guy continued, sounding more and more concerned.

"I know I'm a complete stranger but ill be more than happy to listen."

I was just about to run, just run like before but a thought got stuck in the back of my mind. 'Nicole. I know you're strong, even when you're broken.' Tiarna's voice repeated through my mind.

"No I'm fine. I don't really want to talk about it." I twiddled with my fingers and wiped away some more tears not taking my eyes away from my hands or the ground.

"It's ok. It's understandable. But promise me one thing? You let me buy you some ice cream to put a smile on a pretty face?" I could hear him smiling hopefully.

I didn't really want company, I just wanted to be alone. But I knew that it would stop me from doing anything stupid. I nodded my head and let out a soft little "Ok." And I followed the guy towards the ice cream shop.