Jessica's Pov
I love the way she laughs.
I love the way she sings
I love everything about her
I watched her smiled at tiffany
"Call me when you're done. Take care fany yah" - taeyeon waved her goodbye to her
After tiffany left. There's only the two of us in this room
Silence
My heart beats rapidly
"Taeyeon-ah"
Of course I was the one to broke the silence
She gave me a cold stare and proceeded to her chair to continue recording.
We are recording for our next japanese single. All the girls left.
...
She taps her nails repeatedly on the table.
"Go record your part and leave"
she said without even looking at me.
I coughed and look at the papers in front of me
Silence...
I always thought that Im comfortable with silence.
But Ive never heard silence quiet this loud.
What happened to us kim taeyeon?
As I started to sing all the memories came back to me
....
"Yah shica eat your naengmyun!- taeyeon screamed at me
"It's Sica not shica you pabo!"- I said while laughing.
We used to be so close.
Only sleeps can part us.
We escaped our dance practice to go to beach, eat ice cream and fish cakes.
"Shica I hope we can stay like this forever."
"Stop being dramatic taeng, of course we will!"
We smiled at each other.
I dont promise anything but I broke something.
"Shica- ah it's my birthday tomorrow. Let's go to beach after dream concert! "
We are here in the backstage, waiting for our turn to perform our latest hit single Genie (tell me your wish )
"Yah shica are you even listening"?- she scoffed
"Can you please shut up taeng? You're so annoying. I dont want to go anywhere asked tiffany to join you". I said feeling irritated
I am having a bad day.
My current boyfriend Jaejoong won't answer my calls.
"But shica it's my birthday" :(
There she go again -.-
"Taeyeon will you please fck off? I don't care if it's your birthday! It happens every damn year anyway. And for the nth time stop calling me shica you idiot."- I said, completely annoyed and walk away.
Yeah I remember. It was all my fault.
Because of jaejoong I completely lose my mind.
I lost my self control, cool and calm attitude and
Taeyeon...
.
......
Present.
"What was the hardest part of being the leader of the Korea's number one girl group??? "
Here we are, the nine of us in this radio show
The emcee is asking taeyeon.
I raised my eyes towards her. Yeah Im curious too and besides I miss taeyeon a lot.
Taeyeon: honestly, its so hard. there are times when I hated myself for being so weak that I can't handle my members properly. I got a depression before. When we had a vacation last month, I went home and nobody's there. I feel so empty and sad.
It feels like I lost something important and Im miserable."
I stared at her while she talks and yeah the sadness is visible in her eyes. I felt that familiar pain when jaejoong broke up with me.
"But Im glad my best friend tiffany helps me to recover and Im thankful to all of the members as well" she finished her sentence smiling sweetly at tiffany.
I feel a sudden pang of pain in my chest....
That should be me.
