Levi's P.O.V
Have you ever thought someone was one way but the exact opposite? Have you ever built up such strong exterior but felt so weak and fragile on the inside? Well this basically sums me about up. I am known to everyone that I work with as thew 'tough one' but for some odd reason I can't live up to the standers that I've already set for myself.
I act so... Strong... So independent, but feel so weak to the point I am so insecure I have to make myself... More than it really has to be... But if I were to loosen up I would let people in, trust them, love again, but that just would lead to another heartbreak. After another... I can remember when I built this wall...
*flashback*
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You dirty son of a bitch!" My dad screamed to my 7 month pregnant mother. I just sat back and watched in horror as he slowly beat her to death. "Stop!! Please your scaring our son!" He scoffed. "He's 12 he's old enough to experience a taste of life. What are you going to do when he sees a titan? Huh? Are you going to shield his innocence from everything forever? He's got to grow up and get a grip Alineya. He can't stay a child forever."
With one last pinch to the stomach he manages to kill my mother and my unborn sister at the same time. "Get in your bed. Now." In complete fear I drum up to my bed AMD try to make as little noise as possible. But sadly, he ends up coming into my room anyways. I try to pretend I'm asleep so he doesn't beat me senseless, but no. He craved something far worse than killing me. I could smell alcohol from a mile away. "You've been a bad boy..." He slurred. My innocent 12 year old mind didn't comprehend what he meant so idiotically I said, "B-but i-i went t-to bed... Just l-liked you s-said t-to.." Ignoring me he rain his disgusting hands all over my body. He touched every part, not wanting to miss a thing. Hurting me until he was finished, then leaving me for tomorrow.
