[ZAYN POV]
"yes, Sir" Vanessa hangs up the phone and we end up the call. I've been on the phone with her for the past three days, both text and call. I'm not expecting something of what we have done lately, I just want to be friend with her. She is very nice, funny and carefree. It's really nice to talk to her, she's so easy to talk to. I haven't tell the boys yet about this, but they already keep an eye on me everytime I'm on my phone. Once Louis asked me, "whom you text to? You seem so busy lately, with your phone?". I just shrugged, never give him the answer that he wants. I know they will tease me like crazy if the find out about the texting term between Nessa and me. Harry even said, "If you're texting with Nessa, I pray to God to make you both together and we have to celebrate it in the Starbuck!" and all the boys laughed on him. "why Starbuck?" I asked him, have no idea at all. "Because, Starbuck was the place when you met your princess, so you have to get us all the coffees in the Starbuck" Harry answered. He is the weirdest.
Having this kind of communication with Nessa is really helpful for me to take my mind out of Perrie. I still can't get over her and the pain that she made, but I can't hold it much longer either. I need to let go all of the pains and move on, but speak is much easier than action. I can't deny the fact that I still love Perrie, though I know that she rather choosed that douche than me. My heart sinks everytime I see her and that douche on the TV screen, I just want to throw the TV out of the window. But now, everytime I am in the conversation with Nessa, I feel like I kind of find a new air to breath. There is no more rocks and knives in my chest like before, I can breath easier than before. I am not using her to mend my brokenhearted, not at all. But she just came into my life whilst my heart is broken to pieces and she hypnotized me with those beautiful eyes of hers. I can't say that I am falling for her, not yet, but I can't lie that I already like her since the first time we met at Starbuck. Maybe she knows nothing about my past, but she really helps me to let go out of my pains even without her knowing.
"why are you smile like idiot, Malik?" Liam takes a sit beside me and glares at my phone, but I lock my phone and slide it into my pocket. "who was that you're just called?"
"not your bussiness, Payne" I say to him and turn on the tv. I am looking for the nice tv show to watch, but nothing. I ended up on an infotaiment which talk about Perrie and her douche lover who just leaved a party last night, there are same photo of they're kissing and holding hand at party. I feel my fist clenched above my thigh. I say no words and I can feel that Liam is staring at me and wrapping his arms around my shoulder.
"I know what you feel, Zayn! And I know that you're strong enough to heal with the pain" He tries to comfort me, to calm me down.
"you never now how it feels of being dumped by someone you loved" I state and Liam just keeps silent. "I loved her, Liam. So much! But why she throwed me to the bin?" I let out of what is on my mind. I never talk to much about this problem to anyone. I was just thinking that it is not necessary to tell anyone about this, it won't help anything, it won't change anything either. I keep always keep it by myself. But today, I don't even know why I say this to Liam immediately. "I never treated her bad, we never had a big fight, then why she have to cheated on me? What should I do to make her happy with me? Was I not good enough for her?" I clench my fist, Liam says no words. He keeps listen to me, we know that he's one of the best listener on Earth. He turns off the TV, which still talk about that shitty things.
"Listen, Zayn" His voice full of concern. We all know that Liam is the most mature one of One Direction. I know that it won't change anything, but my head keeps telling me that it can release a bit of the pains from my chest. "I know, that you always treat your girl right, we all know that. Maybe she's just too blind to see how sweet you are and how much you love her, but we can't blame her either. If you guys are meant to be together, you'll find a way back. But I believe that you can find someone better than that blonde girl" his speech makes me a bit relax. He is right. If we meant to be together, we'll find a way back to be together again. But I'm not sure whether I want to get back with her again or not. My head says no, but my heart says yes. I don't know. I don't even know that it's even possible. "Vanessa could be that one" he adds. Winking and smirking at me.
"Not sure" I say and cross my legs on the table. Why people always say that? How could they know that Vanessa can be with me. I even never think about that far.
"I can see the way you look at her, your eyes seem brighter. You kinda live again, haven't 100% yet. But it's getting better" he smiles cheekily, but still concern.
"I admit that she's so nice and beautiful, I adore her but not in the love way, not yet. I still my hardest to get Perrie out of my mind and heart. Plus, I just met her once" I tell him the truth. I do admire her, but not in that way and I don't want her to be, well kind of rebound for me. I just need more time to heal.
"Don't you having a conversation with her on the phone, whether call or text?" he winks again and those evil smirks appear on his face."I bet you gonna catch her up again soon, you both look so cute together" he laughs for some unknown reason. I have no idea why is everyone keep telling me that Nessa and I look cute together, I don't even talk to her much and we only met once. "You two are kinda bit look alike" Liam chuckles.
"I don't want to make her as my rebound" I see suprise on Liam's face
"is there anyone who asked you to make her as your rebound? Too bad, man! she's too good for it" Liam turns to me. "I know that you've already like her, I can see it in your eyes. You just need more time to love her, sooner or later you will though" his tone full of concern & confident. "all you need is time" he adds.
Maybe Liam is right, someday -I don't know when- I can love someone better than Perrie. Whether Vanessa or someone else, but I have to wait that the day will come. I just have to live every moment that I have, going on tour, recording new song, shooting for the new video, travelling the world and meeting our fans. I have a perfect life, but not the love life.
"We better get ready for the meeting with the management now, so tomorrow we could sleep all day!" Liam gets up from the couch and off to his room, getting ready for the management. I am too lazy to go outside, but I know this meeting is important for the five of us. We will talk about some additional gigs, I guess. It will be fun to have more gigs, but tired at the same time. I walk lazily to my room, getting ready as well. This meeting has to be done today, so I can meet Vanessa tomorrow. No, Liam. I will not sleep all day, I will go to Oxford, with Vanessa.
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No! I don't hate Perrie, I adore her. You know it's just a story, I believe that Perrie won't cheate on Zayn. #TeamZerrie
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