Don't Forget Me...(A Justin Bieber Story)

Part 21

Kat's POV

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Where am I? I try to open my eyes but I couldn't. I try to move my arm but pain shot through my body. I whimper at the pain. What happened? Am I dead? I try to move my legs but once again, pain took over.

"Owww." I whimper quietly.

"Ms. Jamison? Are you awake?" I hear a man's voice ask me.

"Yes, but I can't open my eyes, it hurts too much." I whisper.

"Oh thank God. It's a miracle!" He cheered. I flutter my eyes open to see a man in his early-twenties grinning.

"What happened?" I ask. "Where am I"

"You're at Alexian Brother's Hospital. You were hit by a car." He explained.

"Wh-what?"

"It's a miracle you're alive. You flat-lined twice." He said sadly.

"I died two times?" I said as a tear slipped down my cheek.

"Unfortunatly, yes you did. But you could've been dead if your boyfriend didn't save you." He said. Justin saved me? Where is he? Did he get hurt? Was he...dead? Before I knew what was going on, I was breathing rapidly, crying out for Justin. The doctor called out for nurses who restrained me and gave me two puffs of my inhaler they got from my purse.

"Please let me see him." I begged as I tried to fight off the nurses to get out of bed.

"Ms. Jamison, I need you to calm down. He-" I cut him off

"Shut up! Where is Justin! Let me see him!" I shouted at him. He was taken aback from my shouting and got upset.

"I will not be talked to that way!" He warned me.

"Just let me see him!" I begged. I started to pull out the IV from my wrist and ripped the covers from body.

"Miss, calm down. Mr. Bieber is in the emergency room having surgery." The blonde nurse told me.

"WHAT?!?!" I shrieked. He was in surgery because of me. Why did he save me? He should've let me die! I deserve to die! I want to die!

I pretend to calm down and the nurses leave me alone in my room. I begin to claw furiously at my wrist. Blood dripped onto my hospital gown and bed sheets. Every scratch made me think of my father. Every scratch led from one horrible memory to the next. Every scratch brought me closer to death...

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!" Somebody shrieked. I look up and see Selena and Nikki looking at me shocked. Selena runs to the bathroom that's in my room and wraps toilet paper around my wrist. I don't have enough energy to protest. I just lay there, crying.

"That's not gonna stop the bleeding, we need to get a nurse." Nikki said.

"Okay, I'll go find a nurse and you just hold the toilet paper there." Sel says and runs out the room.

"Why Katy?" Nikki cries.

"Because Justin is in surgery, he could die! I deserve to die. I WANT to die!" I cry quietly.

"Please don't think like that, you'll get yourself sick." Nikki begs.

Before I can respond the blonde nurse appears again with Selena not far behind. She wraps my wrist in gauze.

"Ms. Jamison, is there something you'd like to tell me?" The nurse asks. I look at Selena and Nikki, waiting for me to admit my problem.

"Yes. I think I'm suicidal." I tell her.