Sweet Cheat (Ziam fanfic)

Snowfall over Bradford [22]

"And if you were to ask me
After all that we've been through
Still believe in magic

Oh yes I do"

Magic - Coldplay

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Trisha, her hair was a mess, her eyes worried, gathered her strength and opened the door.

" He's stable now" the nurse laid a comforting hand on her and left the hospital room. In the room full of roses, Zayn lay on a bed with tubes going in and out of him.

He was pale, he was skinny, but he was alive.

Zayn felt drowsy and so dizzy. Zayn smiled but looked away from her. His face reddened with shame when he thought of the scene he created the neight before and how wrekless and stupid he had acted. But when she stroked his soft hair with so much love he couldnt help but face her.

"You don't know how happy I am to see you Zayn. I was so scared"

"Mum did the doc say anything about my fingers? On my left hand?"

"He said feeling might return after therapy" Trisha said as he took his limp hands.

As the ice broke, Zayn opened up to her, his coke habit had started when he had trouble with the band.

" It's alright mum. I'm fine now" Zayn shrugged "I I was hurt by someone mum...like everything was burning down around me. I just wanted to runaway, not from anywhere but really...from myself mum. I didn't meant to hurt anybody."

She smiled sadly and placed a small kiss on his forehead. She reached for a basket and started taking containers out of it and placing it on the small table by the hospital bed.

" I made you your favorite. Chicken tikka, biryani and chutney"

" I really can't eat yet mum"

" Of course. Sorry" Trisha stroked her sons hair slowly, looking fondly at her beautiful, fragile son, who was so much like herself. Her smile kind, her eyes wet with tears.

"Zayn, It was my fault what happened that night."

" Mum you had nothing to do with it. It was my stupid mistake ok?"

"No Zayn I want to apologize" Trisha whispered.

" It wasn't right that I pushed you to marry her. So stupid of me!"

Zayn watched her with curiosity.

Trisha held on to Zayn's hand tighter, willing herself to go on.

" And I..I... turned away when your dad was so hard on you. I should've stepped in. Not like with your sisters, he always was a tyrant with you. I don't know why."

She looked away, biting her lip.

"I want you to find someone who truly loves you, not to make the same mistake I made"

" Mum. Is you and dad split up again or something?"

She nodded sadly. "Your father is a good man, but an angry man. I was with him because I wanted to protect you and your sisters. I just want you to know..." Trisha's eyes brimmed with tears. "I love you so very much. You've been the best son I could've hoped for"

" Just tell me you will love yourself first... You are the most important person in your life alright? Don't end up like your poor mum alright?"

" You deserve someone as wonderful as you"