"Adam wake up its time to go." My brother weakly murmured
"What?" I asked
"Adam we're gonna be late for the..."
I interrupted him, "Alright I'll be be down in a few"
It's hard to believe how big of an impact a person has on you. I knew that one day this would happen but I never would have thought it would be soon
It feels like just yesterday we were playing in the dirt and making our mothers mad.
Man those were the days.
No worries, no struggles and no stress. I really miss that, but truth is, I don't miss that nearly as much as I miss you.
You were my other half. How could I lose half of myself so quickly.
I cant help but remember the great times we had together.
Back in 1st grade I would get bullied, it was horrible, I hated school for that very reason. I remember looking up to you for standing up for me. You punched him right across the face, In the middle of our elementary school play ground as everyone watched. You ended up getting in trouble with the principle and boy will I never forget the look on your face when you heard "Mrs. Ashton can you please send Alex Mendoza to the principles office he needs to explain to us the events that took place during recess." over the intercom
I could have sworn that you turned another shade of white.
I hate it,
I hate knowing that never again will I say to you "see you later my friend"
I just can't stand it
"Hey hurry up we cant be lat..."
Again I interrupted with "ok I'm almost done"
As I got into the car I looked up at the sky and smiled. It's cloudy today, you love cloudy weather.
I was dressed in all black. Black slacks, black dress shirt and a black tie. I brought your instrument along with your book of many compositions you wanted to publish when you got old and wrinkly.
Of course I'm gonna give you a copy of it. After all we did vow to publish each others work if one of us ever makes it big.
It's been our dream ever since we were little. I wouldent forget that.
"Finally we're here" my brother whined
"I'm sorry Adam I'll stop" he regretfully said
"It's OK Chris don't worry about it" I responded
There are hundreds of people here,I can't believe my eyes.
Everyone is dressed in black and they all have flowers.
I never really liked going to church but you are my one exception. I never would have thought that we would be married for 15 years.
Of course not actually married but that doesn't matter. Our bromance was stronger than any marriage and I'm sure we both knew that.
As the pastor was wrapping up the service he said would anyone like to say any words?
There was a silence for what seemed like forever. I was disappointed in myself, even after your death I can't overcome my anxiety. I still need you to encourage me dam it
I jolted up and walked towards the pastor.
As I held the mic like I've done many times during our gigs, I couldent stop shaking.
This isn't gonna hold me back I thought to myself. I'm gonna do it for you.
"Check 123. Ahh so it is on I joked" as the people chuckled I tried not to think to hard.
Before I could think about how many people are watching me with their full attention I started talking.
"We are all here because of one reason and that is because of my Bestfriend Alex." I paused and sheded a small tear
I opened the instrument case I had brought up with me on stage and I took out your violin.
"This violin was given to me by Alex's dad before he died. It's been in their family for generations yet he decided to give it to me. I don't know why he did but I am going to return it to it's rightful place next to Alex. But before I do I am going to play ,A composition. A composition that Alex wrote the night he found out his father had been murdered"
As I started playing I herd an increase in tears which led to an increase in the sad atmosphere around us.
Alex titled this piece bonheur which translates to happiness from french.
I never really knew why he decided to go with happiness.
It didn't sound happy at all and he wasent happy at the time.
As I finished the last note people stood up and clapped.
I grabbed the mic and wiped away the tears from my face "God please take care of him, he deserves a place up there with you. He is a good boy, and he is my other half. Allow him to play his violin for you, he is a talented young man and he gets lonely without an instrument, he is everything I ever hoped to be. If you're ever feeling down remember that he is there with you and that not even the saddest of people can resist his encouraging support. He is an angel and he deserves to be treated right"
I placed the book next to his body and I placed the violin under his hands. I placed my hand on his cheek for what I know will be the last time as long as I live, and I said my goodbyes in our secret language.
"Drabgruhe" I whispered in his ear as I leaned in to kiss him on his forehead
Stay safe, don't get into too much trouble.
You've finished you're life now chase your dreams
