Dedicated to most influential man in my life. We shared a name and we shared a dream.
When you said goodbye those were the least of my troubles. You were just a firecracker igniting in a sea of lava
At the end of December we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ and the coming of a new year.
I did not get to do that. I have not move on yet. I am still stuck here in 2015 wondering what is life what is death,what is a knife to the chest and what is a bullet to the arm
What is a friend when he is no longer there to be a friend.
What is a bullet without someone or something to go into.
And why do people die such horribe deaths.
He was not only my friend, but he was my brother, maybe not blood related but
related by our will
We shared the same first name but we never let that define us.
We vowed to never drift apart and
We vowed to become successful together
But what is success if I will never get to expirience it with you.
What is a promise when there is no one there fulfill it for.
I vowed to take care of your brother and I am failing you.
He is lost he does not know what to do. He considers himself strong, yet he has random mental breakdowns that won't let him be him again.
He wants to be himself again. But the memory of you, lying on street like a bum won't let him coup with it.
He fears for tears and he tears for sorrow
I've not only failed you once. I've failed you too many times to count.
I am sorry Alex.
I am sorry about leaving you that night.
Never in a million years would I have though that. You would cease to exist at 2:34 am on December 21st 2015
On the corner of western and Wilshire in Los Angeles California.
Ill see you again maybe not soon but some day. I may look different but you have ceased to age I will always remember Alex Martinez the 16 year old who left behind a career as a gifted and talented musician. You had a good life I love you man.
