SECRETS

Chapter one.

**WARNING~could be a bit triggering**

"Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit. I'm going to be late. Oh my god. It's my first fucking day. I can't be late!" I scream to myself realizing I over slept.
"What an idiot. Why do I always do this?!"
Irritated, I try to pick out some clothes, but of course it being my first day and all, I had to look at least a little bit cute.
"Ugh why do I have NOTHING to wear?" I've looked through my clothes three times now. Angry, I decide to just skip it for now and do my makeup. I always just put in foundation, eyeliner and mascara. Usually flicking the eyeliner into a wing shape. I straightened my hair the night before so that was taken care of already. I always look in the mirror just to realize how disgusted I am with myself.. I've always hated how I looked and never felt good enough. Probably why I'm single haha. You're so gross, why bother? No one will notice you. I sat there for awhile. Starring at my scarred arms.
"Bea, you're going to be late! Hurry up!!" I heard my mom, pulling me out of my thoughts.
"I know mom. I'll be down in a bit."
I decides to just wear my skinny jeans and a band shirt. I doubt anyone would know who pierce the veil is. Though, they're my favorite band. I put on my converse and head out the door. I never eat breakfast. I get sick if I do.
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Walking into my first class has to be the most terrifying thing in the world. Because you know they'll ask you to "introduce yourself to the class", and I'm not to good at doing that. To make it all worse it was math, I suck at math. Ugh.  Before the bell rang I ran to an empty desk.  I just sat there tapping on my thigh and keeping my head down, honestly hoping no one would notice I was even there. I just sat there and true to keep cool and not pass out. When the bell rang I jumped, I guess I wasn't paying good enough attention to my surroundings and it scared me. I heard a laugh come from my right and I glanced over to see a girl. She looked at me and laughed a bit. I just blushed because I knew she saw me get scare by the bell.
"Dude, it's okay. Haha. You're gonna be fine I promise. I'm Alyssa by the way."
She seems like a really nice girl. She has really pretty dark hair, and beautiful blue eyes. She was pretty pale, but not sickly pale.
"Hi. I'm, um, Beatriz. You can, um, call me Bea though.. Everyone does usually."
"Nice to meet you, Bea. I look forward to seeing you around."
I just smile at her. She's really sweet. Maybe it won't be so bad here.
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I didn't have a clue at all what that teacher was saying.. I'm gonna get so lost in this class. I just really want to go home. One class is all it took to drain all my energy. How lame. At least this school has a free period. Which I actually had next. I decided to just go outside and chill by the wall and listen to music. It was such a nice day out, why not take advantage of it. I was so tired, I ended up drifting to sleep for a little bit. Before being woken up by someone anyway.
"Hey, Bea. Mind if I join you?" I was honestly a bit surprised to see Alyssa.
"Um, sure?"
I'm so confused.
"Watcha listening to?"
I just handed her an earbud and let her listen.  
"This band is so rad omg! Who is this?"
"It's um, nirvana." Has she really never of nirvana?!
The bell rang and so we both gathered our things and started walking to class.
"Where you headed?" She asked.
"Art, but I have no clue where it is." I said awkwardly laughing.
"I'll take you if you want."
"I don't want to cause trouble. Really." I try to tell her in the most sympathetic way possible.
"Don't be silly, Bea. What are friends for?" She smiled.
Friend? Did I actually make a friend today? On the first day? Wow new record. She walked me to class and the we said our see ya laters. Walking in I saw only one open seat. So I took it. There was this boy next to me. He had his head down, so I couldn't really tell what he looked like. I could see he had medium length black hair though. I just ignored him for now. And focused on my work. The teacher was really nice, he seems like a cool guy honestly. I got a few friendly welcomes from the other students in class.  It was really nice. We had gotten assigned a project on drawing things we loved, I went for a wolf since I loved them so much, they're literally my favorite animal. I was so concentrated on drawing I accidentally elbowed the guy beside me.... In the head. Oh shit, good job, Bea. Fucking great.
"Oh my god. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hi-.."
"It's okay."
He cut me off, didn't even look at me. Just rubbed his head.
"Still I'm really sorry. Um, I uh. Sorry."
I was so embarrassed.
"Look, it's fine. Don't worry about it." He finally turned to face me and smiled. Holy mother of god he's cute. He resembled Gerard way honestly. He had the most beautiful green eyes. Slightly tan too. 
"I'm uh, Beatriz." I blushed
"Well, hello Beatriz. I'm Logan. It's a pleasure being elbowed in the head by a beautiful lady."
Did he just call me beautiful? Me? Gosh. I couldn't help but blush.
"So it's your first day I'm guessing? Don't be too worried. It's not that bad here. I like your shirt by the way. Great band." 
As soon as he got that last word out the bell rang.
"See you around, Beatriz." He smirked and walked away. The rest of the day went by pretty fast considering all I could think about way him. He was so cute. I think art will be my favorite class.