This Love Is Ours (On Hold)

Upside down

I slammed the paper on my desk in front of him. I am currently in my office and my husband sitting in my rolling chair playing around like a child. I swear this man has a 7 year old child for a soul. Anyways, Hunt thought he could sneak behind my back and give a 3 year old child a dose of the medicine used in my old trail. The trail was never completed and he thinks he can take the medicine and risk a child's life?!?! Has he gone mad?!?! "Are you out of your damn mind?!?! That boy could have died!! He still can! I can't believe you would go behind my back, Hunt! Your lucky she doesn't sue your stupid ass! I saved your ass!" I can't even breathe. Tuck was the same age when the incident happened.
"Dr. Bailey, I am trying to cure my patient. I was just doing what you would do. When you turned that disease into a cure and saved that boy, people were inspired. When you risked your job, people were...... they figured that that's what it takes to be a good doctor. To do whatever it takes to save a person's life. I was just trying to be a good doctor," he said trying to get me to see things from his angle. I get why he did it, but he is so young. He didn't want this. The boy was prepared to die if he had to. That is what broke my heart. I'm not even mad at Owen. I am actually proud of him. I'm just upset that he had to experiment on a little boy. Every time I see that boy in that hospital bed, I think of Tuck during the incident. I started to have nightmares about it. What if it was the twins?!?! Oh my lord! I wouldn't be able to handle it.
"Just go, Hunt. Just.... Just go. Leave that little boy out of you little experiments. He is too young Owen. Now, if u can prove to me it can work, then I will let you do it, but leave him out of it. Your dismissed," I said waving him off. I look back to see Ben still playing around. This man will be the death of me. I walk over and put a hand on the chair to stop it from spinning. He looks at me and smiles. I swear my heart skipped a beat when he did that. I return the smile and sit on his lap. I have been very lovable lately. I guess its because I'm growing Ben's children inside me. I don't know. Oh yeah, I forgot to fill you in. Me and Ben are having twins. A girl and a boy. Me and Ben wanted a girl and we wanted a boy at the same time. So I guess we get them both. We didn't pick out the names yet, but we will. I look down at Ben and kiss his lips. Naturally, he kisses me back. We were having a full on make out session in my office. Mind you, my office walls are mainly glass. So the entire hospital can see us. Not that they were paying us any mind, but still. Everyone knows i hate PDA. Well, not everyone. Anyone that came after I met Ben think that I normally just kiss guys, but everyone else knows I used to hate it. That was before Ben came into the picture. I remember one time, me and Ben were still dating and he had caught me by surprise and kissed me. I forgot we were at work and kissed him back. Tucker walked in to tell me that he was dropping Tuck off to me and he saw us. He was so jealous. I mean it was written all over his face. I was crying from laughing so hard. Beep. Beep. Beep.
Stupid pager. Always interrupting something. Me and Ben were being paged to a patient's room for rounds. It was the little boy. His name was Johnathan. He makes all the doctors call him Johnny because he wants our job to be easier. It was adorable.
"Who is presenting?" Ben asked. An intern raised her hand.
"Johnathan Baker. Age 5. Complained of a tummy ache. With evaluation we realized it was more than just a tummy ache. We recently discovered he has Neuroblastoma." She said.
"Three. Johnny is 3. Doctor, I suggest you get yourself together and quickly. You need to stay organized. You can't save peoples lives if your mixing up simple things, like their ages. Every little detail is important." I say finally walking in. I have been watching from the door to see how the new interns would do. Obviously, not so well. She gave me a dirty look. She was about to say something smart before my husband saved her ass. " Cheif Bailey. You finally decided to stop by Johnny's room when his mother is here." See, every time I came to check on Johnny, his father was here. This time is a little different. I smiled at him.
"Oh hello Dr. Bailey. Its finally nice to meet you. I heard your one of the best. I just didn't think you would be the chief," Mrs. Baker said.
"Well, I learned from the best so I guess I became one of the best," everyone chuckled. Well damn. I didn't think it was that funny. "But, yes. I am Chief and I heard that you and your husband wanted me working your case?"
"Oh yes. We want the best for our son. I see you are about to have kids as well. So you know what I mean," she said gesturing to my growing stomach. I wasn't that big. Well, not big enough for anyone who doesn't know to notice at least. All the interns look at me in bewilderment. The interns are left in the dark. I mean they don't even know me and Ben are married. One of them asked me who I was married to when they noticed my wedding ring around my neck when we were in surgery. I was not surprised. Of course I didn't answer because I am the Nazi. I got to build my reputation back up. Just a little at least. They seemed to be waiting for my response.
"Yes. I actually have a 7 year old son. So, I do get it. I would want nothing but the best for my son and even for my babies on the way," I said rubbing my stomach.
"May I ask if you married?"
"Of course. Uhm I am married. I was married to my son's father, but we got divorced and then we both remarried. Now, we are like best friends." I have absolutely no clue as to why I just said all that.
"Oh wow. Maybe we can chat some time. I do need a little advice on marriage." We both laughed. "Are you married Dr. Warren."
"Yes. I am happily married to the most beautiful woman on the planet," he said. I couldn't help but to smile. The interns looked at us confused. Jeez. They are the stupidest interns in history. We are going to have a field day with them.
"I see and I'm sure she is very gorgeous," she said realizing that the interns didn't know. She winked at us both before we continued with our rounds. We were in the middle of rounds when I heard a gun shot. My mind went back to Gary Clark and tears rolled down my face. I felt someone put a hand over my mouth and pull me close. I started to kick and I was about to scream when I heard Ben saying it was him. He told an intern to quickly and quietly shut and lock the door. The intern successfully shut and locked the door. "Everyone get down and stay away from the door. Now, Casey, I want you to just stay put. We will all be fine," I said. I turned to my husband and whispered," I can't believe this is happening again."
"Me either, but at least this time we can be with each other and work this out together," he said trying to make a joke out of this.
"I have told you you are not funny and yet you keep trying. Its kind of sad."
"Hey," he said acting hurt. "You love my horrible jokes."
"I do actually. Its funny that you try so hard." I started to laugh quietly and then I suddenly stopped. It was as if everything that was happening finally started to kick in. Tears streamed down my face. I knew I had to go out there and be brave like Derek was. I turned to Ben and he looked like he was going to cry. He knew exactly what I was thinking.
"No. Your not going out there, Miranda. Your pregnant and you have a family. You will not go out there. You don't have to be like Sheppard. He got shot and nearly died. Yang had to operate on him at gun point. While Meredith did the same to her husband. We are not going to end up in the same situation," Ben said. The interns looked at us like we were crazy.
"I have to, Ben. I just.. I can't see anyone else get hurt."
"Hell no. You want to risk you and the twins lives so you dont see anyone get hurt?!?! No!"
"I'm suppose to die first anyways," I said trying to make him smile. It just made tears stream down his face. It broke my heart. I have seen Ben cry once and that was when his father died. I cried for days after I saw him cry.
"No. I only said it to make you feel better. Please don't go out there. We are suppose to die when we are old and when we can't remember what was said 10 seconds earlier. Not now. Not like this." The intern looked like they finally pieced together that we were married and the twins are his. Everyone of the girls mugged me. " What about Tuck? He is your son. If not for us than for him." He was pleading me to stay.
"Ben,-" I started but he cut me off.
"I love you too much. If I lose you........ I don't know what I will do. Miranda, your it for me. I have told you this a million times, but you never seem to get it. If you go, there won't ever be another Mrs. Ben Warren. I can't... I can't understand why you want to risk your life like this. The hospital isn't this important. Baby, I know you love this hospital, but you are not going to die for it. I won't let you do it," Ben said finally finishing his long ass speech he decided to interrupt me to say.
"Ben, I need to make sure Tuck is safe. Tucker was suppose to drop him off here and I don't want anything to happen to them. I am his mother and if he gets hurt trying to find mommy again..... I won't be able to live with myself. Ben,-" I said until I heard someone yell from outside the door.
"Mommy?! Daddy?!" It was Tuck. Me and Ben jumped up and ran out the door. The interns were yelling at us to come back, but we wouldn't listen. I ran to my son, picked him up, covered his mouth,grabbed Ben's hand and ran with him back to the room. I heard a gun shot and Ben hiss in pain. I held his hand tighter and kept running. We made it back to the room and the interns quickly shut and locked the door behind us. I put Tuck down and turned to Ben. My eyes traveled his body for wounds when I saw his hands pressing against his stomach. I walked over and gently pried his hands off to examine the wound. I started crying. It wasn't deep, but the fact that he was hurt, that is what hurt the most. "Baby.. I'm so sorry." Bang...........
My life was turned upside down with that one sound.
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I'm sooooooo sorry guys. It was so hard for me to write this chapter.
So the book I was talking about, the first chapter is up. See how it is and ya. For now my loves.