Eat My Words

what is a person

I don't feel like a person anymore
when did this happen,
you ask,
me

I reply
when didn't it,
it always has been,
it simply exists

if you are looking for
an actual
answer
then,

It might be when i was
still a little girl,
still innocent,
to the world 

i remember talking,
to my "best friend" 
we played a game
with other house children

we were no longer 
playing
we were
out

I was feeling
down
so i told her
that i didnt know

if i wanted to
live
anymore,
she replies

"I can't be friends with someone who wants to die"

i went inside
my house,
no more
than

the age
of
9
and 

i cried
because 
i thought i lost
a friend

And now
i realise
that, that 
was the day

that i did
start to lose
my first 
friend