Strings of heartbreaks

Doomed

All the words I wanted to be said,
I Already composed it inside my head,
But my voice just fade...

When our eyes met,
I could already feel the corner of my eyes heat
As I see how warm your smile is,
showing your damn, white pearly teeth...
Asking myself... Is it just me, who can't get on my feet?

You seemed to be unaffected...
While here I am, still so devastated,
Yes, I was the one who turned away, guess I'm the one that should be hated
but you know our love was already tainted...

As I hear you laugh,
Cheering myself, hey girl you should be tough...
But guess that wasn't enough
Cause here I am hiding the crack in my voice with a cough...

I wanted to cry, I wanted to hide
Cause I know my heart just died...
When I told you a Lie,
Telling you it's better this way, straight in the eye
And then kissing you goodbye.

I know it's not your fault,
It's me who give Us a halt...
But funny, it's me who's drowning in malt.

I wanted to shout "hey I still love you you prune!"
But my vocal cords had lost it's tune,
As the truth still loomed...
That from the very start our relationship is already meant to be doomed.