Deal With The Devil (On Hold)

Chapter 13

I sat there in the bathroom waiting. Just waiting. It was supposed to be three minutes but it felt like hours of anticipation. If Sara hadn't pushed me to check it out I wouldn't be in this predicament.

Sitting on a God damn toilet seat waiting for the results of this God damn pregnancy test.

I reached over the counter for my phone and checked the time.

4:47 pm.

I had taken the test precisely three minutes ago. I reached over and took up the stick. I kept my eyes shut and took a deep breath.

It's just a test Khloe, not the end of the world.

When I opened my eyes to look at the stick, my heart tore. I don't understand this. I wanted this right? I'd told myself this a number of times so why did I feel this way? I took another look at the test just to be sure.

I wasn't pregnant.

I felt a drop of something fall on my leg. Tears?

I didn't question it. I just allowed them to fall as I cried my heart out. I didn't want to become pregnant just yet but why was I crying my heart out and why couldn't I stop?

Even as Caerus entered the bathroom and knelt before me I kept crying. I felt his soft hand gently wipe away the tears from my face. I couldn't look him in the eyes. I was too ashamed for god knows why. My fists curled tightly and I lost it.

"This is all your fücking fault! Why did you do this to me you bastard? Why?" I pounded hard on his chest as I let the tears flow down, blurring my vision.

I kept pounding even when he held my wrists firmly in place, not uttering a single sound the entire time. When my hand felt weak I sunk my head into the crook of his neck and wrapped my arms tightly around him. Still crying my eyes out.

I could've had his baby, our baby. I could've been keeping our pride and joy nurtured inside my stomach for nine months, enduring all the hard labour that came with being pregnant.

As long as it was with him.

I had no idea when I began to feel my eyes closing but Caerus scooped me up into his arms bridal style and brought me to the bedroom where he placed me on the bed and slid in next to me. By this time I had stopped crying but my eyes were still clouded with unshed tears.

I felt Caerus snuggle next to me, still holding me into his arms. I placed my uh head on his chest and allowed him to gently stroke my hair. Something he had always done to soothe me when I either felt sleepy or depressed.

"I had no idea you really wanted this cara mia." He whispered. "I promise you I'll make it happen. Soon."

I didn't respond. I simply held on to him tighter, taking in the pounding of his heartbeat against my ear. Even after all we've been through, he still couldn't steady his heartbeat around me. I still had an effect on him. I smiled to myself as sleep overtook me.

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I woke to Caerus' hand still caressing my hair and I smiled. No matter what, he was always so compassionate with me. I didn't bother opening my eyes. I kept them closed, loving the way he stroked my hair. As if every strand was a delicate piece that needed to be handled with the utmost care.

I snuggled up closer to him but I was met by the sheets alone. So he was sitting. He probably left and came back without waking me.

I moaned and turned to face him. My eyes still closed. I was still too exhausted to open them. "I thought you'd be busy." I spoke lazily. A smile creep up on my face and heard him exhale deeply as if I was a sight to behold.