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Always Keeps Us Screaming

Always Keeps Us Screaming

Just when life was getting good again, I thought I had chased her away, finally able to get a goodnight's rest but no.

Once again I had to be wrong and The Lady has to come back swinging with the terror of nightmares again. I was sick of it the first time it happened, there was so much that changed just because she had to crop up in my life.

She ruined me.

I was a good person, well trying to be and then The Lady came along and started to shake my world until all the screws fell out. I was good, slept through the night and I was starting to reverse the effects of the disease The Lady brings.

I picked up the shattered pieces and threw them away; I rebuilt myself and started again. I have good friends; true friends, I have a future started and coming along quite nicely for me. I had everything under control.

But sitting here at 12:30 at night watching some girl freak out because she's having nightmares makes me laugh. She has no idea what's in store, her life will be turned into something different all together because she let The Lady in.

I just want to yell. Nightmares are only the beginning.

You have no idea how happy I was when the terror behind my eyes stopped. I finally slept through the night, stopped looking behind me whenever I walked down the stairs waiting for the creatures with the rotting face to come and push me down. I started getting better, got friends I could count on, people I could trust, and a new foundation for my future, a new mind, and something I could strive for.

I tried to be good; did a lot of thinking and still the nightmares weren't there and I was happy finally moving forward in life again. But no there was too much freedom and hope in me for The Lady.

Just like before she came back. The Lady loves to keep her play things screaming. Too bad she had to rope me back in, I'm pretty sure I had things going for me finally something to work towards. Somewhere in the back of my mind I think I missed her a little.

Looks like The Lady is here for a long visit with no departure in the future.