What Life Throws at You: Melody Sings

Chapter 3- Confessions

I was at peace, until I felt a hand on my face a soft, warm hand. My eyes fluttered open I saw Jason. His eyes where filled with concern and pain at me, I had almost forgotten the pain I had felt that day. I got up and pulled away, the last bits of ember from anger before reignited in my soul. They burned bright and I couldn't even look at him. His voice was soft and sweet, "What's wrong? How could you hurt yourself like that?" I got angrier. He knew how I got hurt, ugh my parents can't keep their mouths shut! "Jason I don't need you and your cheating ass!" I was so mad my eyes started tearing. They stained my cheeks and held inside all my pain. Jason face turned to shock he was speechless for a moment then he said "You heard about the kiss." I was full out crying now "Yes I heard about the kiss!" I showed him the picture and continued, "how could you?!" He looked at me in pain "Melody I didn't, she kissed me. She was upset. She was in a bad place, and it happened. I would never do anything to hurt you. You are my love, you need to trust me on this. And if you can't trust me as your boyfriend, trust me as your best friend." I don't really know why but everything he said rang true to me I believed him. I was so relieved I jumped on him in a hug. Then I said it "Jason I needed you today, all this isn't bad. What you need to know is that I'm pregnant..."

Everything stopped. Jason stood there motionless his face was filled with horror he looked like he had just been hit by a truck. He moved away from me as if I was infected or something he didn't speak a word. "I knew it," I thought "why did I tell him? Thats just a ticket for him to leave. Now he's got that other girl who isn't pregnant." After a while of silence I went to speak but he butt in, " I have to go." He got up to leave and I sat there shocked tears welled up in my eyes. A second ago he was all about me how I felt and how I was the one he loved and he just was going to leave.

I couldn't sit and watch I grabbed him by the hand. I was so close to crying all over again. "What do you mean 'I have to go'?! How can you say anything after what just happened?!" We locked eyes until his turned to the ground and then repeated "I have to go." I stood there in shock I watched him leave. Every step he took was a knife to my heart. Just when I got some relief everything feel apart all over again. I don't know what to do or if I want to do anything anymore. I am so broken, so lost. I wish God would just give me a break.

I went back to my room I laid there for a few moments reflecting on everything. I have to go. That's all I could here ringing in my head. It repeated over and over again like a broken record. That's all he had to say. No words of comfort. Nothing. Just a swift exit out the door, probably out of my life too. People would feel angry or sad or frustrated. Me? I didn't feel anything. All emotions escaped me maybe cause I used them all up for the day. The only thing that could describe me was empty. I felt like there was nothing left, that everything was gone. I didn't feel like Melody, I felt like she died today and I am just an empty body with no soul.

My train of thought was gone my brain felt like mush. I could hear my parents having fun drinking, singing, and dancing. My brother was playing a video game I could here the gun shots from his room and the mutters of annoyance when he lost and the screams of anger when he died. My parents were surprisingly supportive of me through this tough time. They knew I didn't mean for this to happen and I found some comfort in that thought. At least I wouldn't be alone I would have them which I originally thought the opposite of. I always assumed Jason would be there he support everything I do and my parents can be difficult but that's not the case at all. I have to go. That's all he had to say to me as I told him I was pregnant that I had his child inside of me. That's all he had to say and it hurt.

I looked at my phone for what felt like hours, waiting for a text from him saying something, anything. My phone was silent. I didn't want to send anything, it was too early. I stayed hopeful. Maybe he would be supportive. Maybe he needs time. I kept hoping and praying things turn out better the next day. I need something to be ok after this, after the world came down on me. It was 10:30 at night. Maybe he wasn't awake- we do have school tomorrow maybe he went to bed. I see him second block, so we can talk then. I decided it would be in my best interest to sleep. At first I thought I wouldn't be able to because of all the thoughts that raced through my head. I didn't realize how tired I was until I felt the darkness creep in and everything calmed down. I was out so quickly I couldn't believe it was morning when I woke up.