What Life Throws at You: Melody Sings

Chapter 4- Silence

The morning came earlier then I thought. I had a dreamless nights sleep. It was nice it allowed me to have a break from everything. It allowed me to breath I was able to have peace. Everything was alright for a moment and once my eyes opened the pain rushed back in. My body was numb I didn't want to move I wanted to curl into a ball and stay in this dark room. This room where nothing more could hurt me. I had to continue through everything because that's not how life works.

At school he was no where to be found he had left me. It all didn't hit me till I got home when I realized everything was falling apart. Hot tears streamed down my eyes nothing could stop the pain that filled my body. Every kiss, every I love you, every moment was a lie. He was probably off somewhere having a good all time without me while I lied in my room unable to move and only company I had was the comfort of my demons that started haunting me. They held me close and kept telling me everything that was going wrong. I cried so much I made myself sick. Everything was collapsing around me mixed feelings ran through my head. The main one being anger and sadness but others were there to like love. Yes after all this I still love him, he completed me made me feel ok when things went wrong. Then the anger I had shifted from him to me. I was mad at myself. I made everything my fault blamed myself and everything I was ever confident about crumpled down into nothing. I couldn't even look at myself all I saw was nothing in the mirror. I got myself together to complete the homework I needed for the next day. If I was going to keep this baby I need to be sure I do well with school this is all I have now and I need to make the best of it. "My parents will help me I will probably be fine." I told myself this a few times but the more I said it the less likely it seemed to be true.

I check my phone a lot hoping he would contact me, do something to let me know he was there for me. But there was silence and it was the worst. I tried to stay hopeful but I was running low on hopes and anything positive. It was horrible the silence was slowly killing me and I couldn't do anything about it.