Let Me Go (MargElla)

chapter 1

Aly: " Ang ganda nanaman ng ngiti mo ah? May magandang bang nangyari?"

Marge: "Wala , wala. Masama na ba akong ngumiti?"

Aly:" Kilala kita Tejada, simula nang ........."

Marge: "Wag mo na ngang banggitin ang bagay na yan Aly, nawawala ako sa mood eh.."

Hi! By the way, I am Margarita Anne Marie Tejada, Marge for short, I am a neurosurgeon at nagmamay-ari ng MT Medical Memorial Hospital.  Magandang-guwapo and I am into girls .. But Hindi na ako naniniwala sa pag-ibig ..flings okay pa.. But having a commitment? I think I'm not into it, for now. Ang kausap ko ngayon ay best friend and co-worker ko, isa syang psychologist, Alyssa Valdez is the name, and same as me , she's also into girls , at merong girlfriend who is Dennise Michelle Lazaro, isang doctor sa St. Luke's ..

Aly: "Don't tell me hindi ka pa rin nakakaget over sa ginawa ng asawa mo?"

Marge:" Let me correct you with that, ex-wife.." Binasa  ko ang isang folder doon
"And let me remind you miss Valdez ayokong naririnig o pinag-uusapan ang pangalan nya o kung ano man ang meron at konektado sakanya"

Aly:"Fine, napakainit naman ng ulo mo, so this girl Ella de Jesus, I heard she's the owner of ElMy hotel and restaurant and also my girlfriend's friend, what's going on to the both of you? "

Marge:"Nothing, just being friends"

Aly:" Friends? Hanggang ngayon friends parin ang status nyong dalawa?"

Marge:" You know me Aly, I have no plan on being on a commitment again , and also, I think she is, too" a hint of bitterness was present in my voice.

Aly:"You can't say that it will take that forever, we are not getting younger anymore and you know that, you should also plan of having a partner that you can live with for the rest of your life.. And your smiles speaks differently than what you said right now, tell me Marge, are you falling in love with her ?"

Am I falling Inlove with her na ba? Pero... Tsk. I dont want to take a risk of losing her.

Aly:" I got your thought.. You're in a confuse thinking right now,, balitaan mo ako if you realize it already. BTW, I better get going, see you later sa bar mamaya,"

Tsaka ito umalis. Napasandal naman ako sa akong swivel chair and got my very deep sigh. Even I realized what feelings I have for her, I know it will be all worthless lalo na't katulad ko din noon ay hindi din ito naniniwala sa LOVE because of her experiences.

Flashback

Nandito ako ngayon sa isang park, I was just reminiscing some of the moments I had with my wife. I don't know what did I do just to make her leave me and go with her ex boyfriend. Bakit kelangan nya pa akong saktan? Ginawa ko naman ang lahat wag lang syang umalis, I made time for her. Hindi ko sya pinaghihigpitan pero parang kulang para sakanya ang lahat ng mga iyon. Masakit at nang dahil sakanya ay naging ganito ako.

Pagkatapos ng ilang oras na pagmumuni-muni ay tumayo na ako sa pagkakaupo ko sa isang bench doon... nang may narinig akong tinig na tanging nasa likod ko lang at paglingon ko ay nakita ko ang isang babaeng mukhang miserable din katulad ko, may kausap sya at halatang umiiyak at lasing na sya..

???: "Fuck that Jia!!!! I don't wanna hear what explanation she had!! Sinaktan nya ako at sapat na yung dahilan para kalimutan sya.. Oh did I mention that I already moved on with her?....What do you mean na lasing ako? Ako!!! Lasing?? Anong kalokohan ang pinagasasabi mo? Kung lasing ako sana hindi ko na nararamdaman ang sakit na nararamdaman ko!... No ayoko munang umuwi. Hayaan mo muna ko ngayon Ji,, don't worry papasok ako bukas. Ilalabas ko lang muna ito..Bye" at tinapon nya yung phone nya sa kung saan. Hindi ko na sana ito papansinin pero bigla itong umiyak. 

???: "I hate you... I really hate you. Bakit kinailangan mo pang bumalik? Bakit bumalik ka pa!?" I sighed. I felt bad for her, maybe because I can relate myself to her. Agad kong dinukot ang panyo sa bulsa ng pantalon ko at nagdesisyon akong lapitan ito para bigyan ng panyo.

Marge:"Miss oh, mukhang kakailanganin mo to."

???: " Who the hell are you?"

Marge:"It doesn't matter who am I. I just want to give you this I know you'll need this right now. I just felt bad seeing you like this, maybe because I can feel where you are coming from."

Agad nya namang kinuha ang panyo pero kasabay nun ang paghawak nya sa kamay ko. At ikinagulat ko ang bigla nyang pagyakap sakin at doon umiyak. Hinaplos ko lang ang kanyang likod upang mahimasmasan sya. Nung medyo okey na sya ay humiwalay na sya sa pagkakayakap nya sakin at nagpunas ng kanyang luha sa pisngi.

???:"I'm sorry if I made you my tissue right now."

Marge:" its okay, what's important is you're okay now. Are you?"

Ngumiti naman sya. I stopped for a while and stares for her smile. Her smile gives me goosebumps. Biglang bumilis ang pagpintig ng puso ko. Oh no.

???:" yeah by the way, I'm Jorella Marie de Jesus. You can call me Ella."

Marge:" Marge Tejada."

???:" Marge Tejada?? Wait its sound familiar to me. You're the owner of MT Medical Memorial Hospital, am I right?"

Marge:" Yeah?..How did you know?"

Ella:" Sinong Hindi makakakilala sayo..sikat ka kayang neurosurgeon katulad ni...."

Marge:" Katulad nino?"

Ella:" Wala, some random person I know na hindi ko inakalang nakilala ko pala. Ha-ha. By the way why are you here?"

Marge:" I should be the one asking you that. Nandito ka ba dahil sa brokenhearted ka?"

Ella:"How did you know? Ganun na ba ako kahalata?"

Marge:" Nope, narinig ko lang naman Kasi ang pagsesentimyento mo kanina sa kausap mo sa phone about someone.. And I've heard na ayaw mong pakinggan ang kung anumang paliwanag nya."

Ella:" You're such an eavesdropper pala"

Marge: "Hey dont blame me, ikaw tung malakas ang boses na para bang gusto mong  buong mundo ang makarinig."

Ella: "Tsk! I was just upset okay? and I'm just brokenhearted. I'm a mess right now. I am so broken and I don't know how to mend this kind of wound. It is f*cking too much for me to handle anymore... and I cant just think straight anymore."

Marge: "i was just joking... and I understand, you dont need to explain yourself anymore."

Ella: "How about you? What are you doing here in the middle of the night? Don't tell me, you're just passing by here and it's coincidence that you saw me here?"

Marge:"Nah! actually, just like you I'm also a wreck... what happened was a long time ago and I think I am in the process of moving on from her... I just... you know... reminiscing some moments with that someone and asking myself why did she leave me.." Naramdaman ko naman ang patingin nya sakin.. Kaya tumingin rin ako sakanya.

Ella:" Pareho pala tayo.. Do you think fate ito ni God satin... Na pagtagpuin tayo? And become a good friend?"

Marge:"Really? Nagpapaniwala ka sa fate na yan?"

Ella: "Well yeah, even if I am bitter, I still try to believe in those." nagkibit-balikat naman ako sa sinabi nya.

Ella:"So, are we friends?"

Marge:"So, are we never gonna fall in love with each other?"

Ella:"Never"

Marge:"Then, yes... friends" and we shook our hands..

-End of FLashback

Hayysss.. Am I really falling Inlove with her? But we made our promise. Na we will never gonna fall in love again. What should I do?