Never Saw It Coming

The Week After

So nothing's really changed to be honest. I had been for one of my therapy sessions but I didn't really like it. I don't really see the point in it anyway, especially for a cancer patient. Isn't therapy supposed to be where you talk through a problem? But let's be honest I don't think talking to a friend about my feelings is really going to help me beat cancer but I'll do anything they think might work. The woman has me doing breathing exercises to get over my panic attacks and anxiety because they just don't help the situation in the slightest. Why can't I just be a normal teenager that goes shopping with her friends after school and throws super cool party's? Why can't things go back to how they used to be? Back to when I was queen bee of the school and everyone used to run things by me. Will I not be voted for homecoming queen anymore? Even if I do it will probably be out of pity. What about my date? Well I'm guessing Toby (Fittie of year 10) won't be taking me anymore so what do I now? How can I get things back to how they used to be? Could I maybe apologies to Sam and hope he will restore our friendship, then I will try to reconnect with Toby so we can become the hottest couple in school. And then once I have Toby and Sam back everything should fall into place. So it's settled tomorrow I will talk to Sam and persuade him to accept my apology...