Dreamer

Blue Sky

  Very few people just stop, very few people just stop doing what they do just to take a step back, to look at our lives from a different person's perspective, to see the faults, our actions, the irrational look of what we do each day.  I know I do... but I feel alone in this.

  I wake up, the date is the same, I'm awake.  I go through my routine, and go downstairs to eat breakfast, I realize I have to avoid dropping that bowl, so I ask my mom to take it down for me... and she drops it instead, my dad is a little easier on her, considering he did almost nothing to me.  I gather all my stuff, head to the door, and... someone knocks at the door.  I open it, feeling like I know who it is, and again it is Skyler.  Does this girl have no school or any social life? I mean, I guess that's a bit mean considering it's only the second time she's done this, but still... two days where she walks with me to school just to talk for no reason.

  She wants to walk with me to school again but she still seems just as stunned, it seems I still amaze her.  I don't know if she finds me attractive or if it's just something she heard about me but she clearly wanted to come back.  I walk out the door and we head on the 3 mile journey to my school.  During the walk she complains about the distance a bit and I tease her about it, we've only know each other for 2 days and we are acting like old friends, strange, huh?  Before when we walked the first time I didn't really notice it but she looks nice, it's not necessarily attractive, but nice.

  She talks a lot and I do something I haven't done yet; I ask her something.  Now if you knew me well, you'd know how much I don't like to talk, it doesn't matter who it is, but something about her, I just had to.  I asked her about her family and she became a little quieter and lacked detail instead of having excess of detail, so I caught on that she didn't want to talk about it and told her she didn't have to answer if she didn't want to.  She stopped talking the second I let her... then a tear rolled down her cheek, I clearly messed something up and I involuntarily apologized and comforted her.  I know a girl for 2 days and I've already said something wrong.

  She realized I didn't mean any harm and told me it was fine.  We walked in silence for a few minutes, both of us feeling a little awkward all the while. After a bit, she started talking again but she surprised me, she brought up her family. She has 2 older siblings, one brother, one sister, and her father.  I thought about asking about her mother and about her getting upset but I had done enough "damage" already.

  She continued on after that and I slowly joined in, and we talked almost as if we were old friends.  I was still cautious, and I felt that even if she had trusted me so quickly, I didn't need to trust her immediately.  At one point, she realized how little I had said about myself, or anything for that matter, so she told me that she was going to shut up and let me speak, I quickly said no but she further insisted.  So I started, I told her about my mom and dad, my friends at school, my past love life with Jessica, and Maria, my favorite subjects, and... at that point she couldn't keep herself quiet, she quickly returned to talking but she made sure that I was.  About now, I think I would have kept talking even if she was keeping an eye on me, I don't know what it is, but it feels like the more you spill the beans to a person, the closer you feel with them.

  Soon we had reached my school, I realized I had missed the first 3 periods of the day, two hours and thirty minutes of class where I was unaccounted for.  It was between bells so I started into a run, quickly saying goodbye to Skyler.  She quickly shouted for me to come back, so I did.  She asked if I could come over after school, just to hangout when we both have time, so I thought for the half a second I had and said yes.  She gave me her address and she told me to have a good day... and I thought... I thought about her, how she was impossible to my life, how she just approached me one day, yesterday... I can't see her in my dreams, when I sleep, I... I just don't know.  I finally got into my spanish class, I sat down, and I thought... about her.  Not in a sense that I like her, but I took some time out of my day, wondering how something, someone so impossible could ha... I think I get it.  I'll see her tomorrow and then I'll ask her, and I can satisfy my brain's need for logic in the universe.