School was a drag. I didn’t think the day could get much worse when Kris confronted me but boy was I wrong. David made a stop by my locker, as I was packing up to leave.
“Babe I’ve missed your bony ass.” He hissed into my ear as he squeezed my butt. I instantly turned around. His face irked me now. I just couldn’t stand seeing him. His presence made me want to vomit.
“Get the hell away from me you dick!” I screamed at him. All the heads in the hallway turned to me. I didn’t care what anyone would think. I just needed to get the hell away from him. He has brought enough trouble into my life and he never loved me. He used me like I was just a whore that did whatever he said. Just the only difference was that abuse didn’t pay me in money. I remember it hurting at first. But eventually I became numb to it. Which was one of the reasons I started to inflict harm myself.
Maybe I did deserve David. I was just so confused.
David pushed me back against the lockers causing me to drop all my books. He gripped both my wrists and held them next to my head. I could smell the alcohol on his breath as he neared me. I stiffened beneath him. Soon enough he attacked my mouth with his. I didn’t know what to do so I did what came to my mind first. I bit his tongue. He growled and I made a break for it. I ran so fast I wasn’t even sure I was breathing.
I can never love again. I promise to myself I shall not ever have sex again. David didn’t listen to me. I wasn’t ready for that next step. He wouldn’t take no for an answer and I just stopped talking all together by the end of our relationship. If you can even call it a relationship…
I reached it to my house and stood on my porch searching for my house key. My house was a tad tiny but just enough room for my mother and I. It was brick and had a cracked layer of white paint lain atop. You could see all the years and weather it had been through. The story it tells. From the droopy gutter that was caused by me trying to retrieve my favorite Barbie doll my next-door neighbor through up onto the roof. To the tiny broken glass window that was boarded up right next to our kitchen from when I was trying to sneak in one night. I “accidently” broke the window…when in reality I don’t even know how I broke it since I was so wasted. I may hate my town and life but the one thing I enjoyed most were the goofy memories that existed inside this quant house. All the emotions splattered over the old walls. My closet friend of all time, Gali, doesn’t live near me anymore. I reflect back on the night that changed it all.
-1 year earlier-
“Ivy get down here!” Gali shouted from downstairs. It was my 16th birthday and Gali and Kris had been stressing about it for weeks now. I don’t even know why…but it felt nice to have friends who cared so much.
“Coming!” I replied. I adjusted my new black dress and strode down the stairs.
“SURPRISE!” at least 50 people shouted at me from my living room. GEEZ who knew Gali and Kris knew so many people?! I was bombarded by hugs and kisses. I began to feel claustrophobic.
“Hey sexy.” A deep voice whispered into my ear. David. My crush…the boy that made my heart skip a beat. I grinned as I turned to face him. He placed his hands on my hips and brought me closer. “You’re mine tonight…” He then kissed my cheek and wandered into the crowd of people. I could feel the burning of my cheeks. Tonight was gonna be amazing.
“Hey girl!” I knew right away who it was from her Argentinian accent, the one and only Giuiliana. She approached me with a cute boy on her arm. He had wavy dirty blonde hair and was gorgeous. I was flabbergasted at him. He gestured his hand out for me to shake.
“Hey I’m Ashton. Happy birthday!” He grinned and I felt my insides melt.
“Wow down boy! You couldn’t be more obvious checking out my stunning friend in front of me could you?” Giuliana said then chuckled. He put his arm around her shoulder and she snuggled into him. I couldn’t help but envy there relationship.
“Ivy we need to talk.” Gali said as she approached us. She led me away from the adorable couple to the kitchen.
“What’s up girlie?” I smiled. She had a concerned look plastered on her beautiful face.
“I slept with David…” My heart froze.
“What? When? Where? I cant…” my brain was a tornado of thoughts.
“It just sorta happened and I totally regret it…I’m so sorry! I knew you liked him too I just couldn’t help myself.” I wasn’t taking any of her shit. This wasn’t the first time she has gone after the ones I care about.
“But there’s something else too…I am leaving, Next week actually. My mom wants me to move in with my brother in America. I didn’t know how to tell you since I just found out myself.” I couldn’t take in any more. I just left her there. She ruined my birthday. I know that sounds extremely selfish but it was true.
